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How u get feelings for girls Idk I talkd to like, many girls. But i never get attched to them I get bored of talking to them after a week or when i get nudes. Ik u guys get feelings for a girl after like, sconds. How u do it so sick of feeling empty i just want a gf but i cant get feeligns | non-suicide |
I can't stand the pain anymoreI am living in agony. And I am not ment to survive this. I want to go | suicide |
I can't do itI can't live, i tried. I fought. I've been in ICU. I've encountered death times, all not from attempting suicide. I tried to go on surviving by sheer willpower, i did everything i could. But i can't go on anymore. I've been sad for decades and i'm only . i failed starting up business times. Last year was the biggest blow. Just lost my job in march. Debts are piling up. I was a brilliant kid, had so much potential. Certified genius at the age of . What a joke. Now i need to face a reality where i am never going to amount to anything, with dollars left in my account. My mom told me she is disappointed i don't become what everyone predicted for me. Had a traumatic birth months ago, baby wasn't breathing so they took him to NICU and it messed my head. My heart stopped during birth and consequently it damaged. Had another cardiac arrest last year so they put in a pacemaker. I honestly think it's a waste now. I was a writer, a painter. I cant even think what to write or paint now everything was abandoned in my work desk underneath a pile of rubbish in the store room. I want to end everything except i have a toddler who i'd hate to see following my footsteps. But what if he grows up sad and defeated like me? I want to bring him with me but it's not a decision for me to make. He can't make a choice to die like i do. Have so many voices in my head i cant think. | suicide |
Should i stop complaining my guy friends? I have quite a few guys in my friend group and i like giving complements toy friends. But i kinda started worrying if that's considered flirting??? Cuz i made a complement in the form of a joke to a fr yesterday and he kinda got flustered ig??? as if stopped functioning for a while of some shtt (idk if it was cuz it was a *bad joke* or a *compliment* tho...) Like I've seen memes abt these kinds of stuff but I can't get take all social advice from memes so... am i accidentally flirting??? | non-suicide |
To yall who wear your mask bellow the nose, why? Your essentially just wearing a condom with a hole in it, it should cover your nostrils too. | non-suicide |
I want to dieEvery single day I think about dying, the ways in which I could kill myself and when. I dont see any sense in continuing on. My life has been full of so many traumas and obstacles and it never ends, I dont think I can keep enduring. Im completely isolated right now, no friends, in an extremely rural area with no car, I have almost no money, pregnant, and see no end in sight. I dont know how I can improve my situation, I just want to die. | suicide |
Just about ready to do it.I admit I haven't thought about doing this in a while. But I'll be this year. I don't have close friends. All my family is dead. And I have a job so miserable that if I don't do it first, the job will do it for me. I'm getting more and more okay with the plan. Swallow a whole bunch of benzos with a whole bunch of booze. Put the gun to my head and then nothing. I don't have a gun. So nothing is going to happen anytime soon. I hope i get someone to find a home for my cats. I'm at the end of my rope. There's very little left. I just need to get a note together and my list of passwords. | suicide |
I dont care if people cry when I dieThey will get over it. Living to give others satisfaction and safety without feeling it yourself is hell. In the end everyone's alone. | suicide |
I have to start getting ready for school in seven hours and Im like, just not sleepy fuck me lol | non-suicide |
Ruined my reputation in my family. I can't see how this ever ends well.Short story: I viciously attacked my adult niece via Facebook PM a few nights ago over the way she treats her kid and her family. I am nw shunned and hated by my wife's family. Long story: My uncle died around days ago, not too unexpectedly, but my mom and dad found his corpse. My mom is obviously upset. My uncle's life was deeply troubled from abuse, drugs and various other things. I have been emotional about this as well. And I drink. A lot. Saturday night my wife goes to her sister's house (grandmother to the kid in question, mother to the niece) for the little kid's birthday party. I stay home as I have been helping my mom and dad a lot. So I drank. And I stewed about my niece. She has abandoned one side of her family as she thinks they have chosen her ex-husband over her. She's using the child as an emotional tool. She's caused all kinds of issues, and has made my MIL cry a few times as she has just cut contact: drops the kid off, won't leave the car, etc. So I had the genius idea to call her out about it on Facebook. I got really, really mean. Now my wife's side of the family is immensely angry and betrayed by me. My wife is barely talking to me, and has told me several times how bad the situation is. She's been getting an earful from everyone. I have made sincere apologies to the family members I have contacts to (it's a big family, not everyone is on social media). I cannot see a way out of this. I know I ruined the lives of others and I have ruined mine. I have been researching where to get a gun, and have been planning suicide. This will take some doing for logistical reasons, but I have had a rocky relationship with my wife recently, my parents are grieving and I have other problems. I've been unemployed for almost a year and I drink too much. I guess I'm asking for help. I just can't live like this. | suicide |
Welcome to My World Ya know, I've been thinking about this since the pandemic started. I've watched almost every teenager I know go crazy over doing online school - they hate it! It's amusing because I did online school for years before going to college, and when they kicked everyone off campus, I just did everything online again, just like I did before. Nothing really changed for me, 'cause I was used to it. All I could think was, "Welcome to my world!" Is this the case with anyone else, or am I just that weird online school kid? Lol | non-suicide |
I cant fucking take this anymoreI destroy everything I touch. Im bipolar but Im % sure Im BPD. Im to scared to talk to my husband about it. I feel like the biggest fucking source of problems and I cause so many fights while Im dissociated and I almost caused a serious accident on my way home during this current fight. I get angry or emotionally overloaded and I just want to cut or die to make it all go away. Why the actual fuck does anyone think Im actually worth the effort of keeping alive. I have a bottle of muscle relaxants, Xanax, and theres plenty of alcohol to wash it all down. If that doesnt work, he has a gun in his car but I dont know how Ill get to it know. Maybe just a knife in the shower. No thats too messy. Wouldnt want to inconvenience anyone past being alive already has. | suicide |
This sub is now sexist Theres no male Snoo in the banner. Without appropriate male representation, I feel discriminated against and segregated from the whole of the subreddit. | non-suicide |
I have just about as much personality as a Ti- graphing calculator What does talking to people and not failing at making an interesting point feel like? | non-suicide |
Im that cool mf that stays alone in a fast food, coffee and other places Also my friends dont usually come with me soooo... yeah | non-suicide |
Im bored Can anybody tell a funny story in the comments , to entertsin me ? Thanks :) | non-suicide |
Is there Something is wrong with me? Ok so listen I'm you following? and I prefer older music than modern music old songs like uranium fever from , ride of the valkyries, butcher Pete and I have great dislike of tiktok and other social medias Twitter being a exception but above all that other shite I remember: this current generation is fricked and I blame tiktok for half of it. Most of it. All of it. Ok I'm done, good day and have a wonderful tomorrow. | non-suicide |
Ive really really fucked up this weekI have a lot to live for and I know I do and I dont know if its changing my meds but I really really just wanna end it tonight. This week a person who I was good friends with for years ended our friendship after she acted like I didnt exist for a month. She didnt give me a chance to explain myself after a conversation I had with another person that made her think I was just a shitty person, but I was just trying my best to make the world a better place. Then, a friend I recently got close with told me in a really hurtful way (Im really not trying to play the victim but he was very insensitive about it) that because of a joking text I sent him about his dad that he and his dad think Im creepy and his brother that I had a huge crush on but doesnt like me back also thinks Im gross and I just dont think that this is the right lifetime for me. I believe in reincarnation and I do a lot of good work, or so I think, as an educator, but apart from that my family thinks Im a failure and I cant maintain friendships or meaningful relationships. I know Im young () and that it gets better but this really really hurts right now. And I dont really see how i can be strong enough to make it through. | suicide |
I like this girl but I blew my chances with her help?! So theres this girl in my school that I have liked for at least a year now, Ive tried to get over her but I cant. At the time I was hanging out with some other people and her and her friends pretty much everyday would come, be it to watch us play basketball or just talk. I started liking her probably a couple weeks after this all began. Thing is now that I looked back at it my gut tells me she was into me too, she would sometimes separate me from the group (with a friend sometimes) and just talk to me, always ask who I liked, whenever she was talking to her friends I would always catch her looking at me. Im not saying she was, its just thats what my gut tells me. Well I was basically too stupid to acknowledge any of these things and never asked her, and I remember once when she was talking to me with one of her friends, I got so embarrassed and quite frankly shy, I ran off to carry on playing basketball with my friends at the time. Well about halfway through October I had a fallout with these people (I started talking to them again after a couple months) and basically didnt really talk to her or her friends anymore after that. Its been ages and weve still talked in school but barely and Im just trying to get over her now since Ive pretty much blown any chance of ever getting with her. I could start messaging her but I feel like it would be a bit weird or creepy to just message her out of nowhere. Can anyone help, its really sad thinking about what couldve been and how much of an idiot I acted with her | non-suicide |
Why do white ppl get offended on behalf of minorities? Im talking bout the left now. Most of the time we dont even get offended, yall make everything a big deal. | non-suicide |
Yay,it'll be over in a matter of hoursLife keeps getting worse and worse,I can't do it,it'll be over soon though,I thought I was getting better at one point,wasn't,I'll see you all on the other side I guess | suicide |
I don't know what to domy friend is suicidal and i just don't know what to do | suicide |
Theres just no pointIm fucking up the wall. There is absolutely no point in continuing to live. Im physically and emotionally drained all the time. I have no friends and my family doesnt even acknowledge my existence. Im so fucking alone. The only person I see is my mom and thats maybe like once a week. I have no motivation for anything anymore. I dont wanna do college work and sit in online classes for hours at a time. I barely leave my house. Ive lost interest for absolutely everything I was interested in. Im not even good at anything. All I do is cry all the time. The only good thing that has happened to me recently was meeting this guy on a zoom class and we started seeing each other. But I cant even let myself have that because I dont even think Im worthy. Like he has so many friends and such a great life, I dont understand why hes attracted to me. I genuinely wish I never met him. Tbh, Im ready to just kill myself. Ive said that so many times throughout my life, I just need to finally go through with it. Im so done. | suicide |
I cant do this anymoreIm absolutely at the end of my tether. I dont feel like myself. Ive completely lost touch with reality. I cant feel my body or connect to my surroundings. Everyone looks unfamiliar, my body feels like its on fire, i feel like Im dying, why cant it just happen? I dont want it to be an attempt I genuinely cannot cope | suicide |
How is everyone today? Anyone need a hug? | non-suicide |
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please help, i dont know whats wrong with me, this has been going on for awhile now lately I have just been so rude towards everyone and idk why, I have a lot of ups and downs. i feel like my bf doesnt love me like right after he compliments me an i start disliking a friend from the moment theyre around me, help, this has been going on for awhile now | non-suicide |
That feeling when you fergot to do the hw but the teacher forgets to hand it in Name a better feeling | non-suicide |
Feel so sad and lost I got home from work today and just thought fuck it Im not going to kill myself dont worry about thatFeel so sad and lost I got home from work today and just thought fuck it Im not going to kill myself dont worry about that just feel ass if my life is nothing I will be nothing and I will die nothing my past has really fucked me up and my girlfriend doesnt know how I feel and when we go tho ruff spots I dont want to tell her because Im scared she will think Im using me feeling like shit to account for my actions dont wat to do guy feel lost in side these last few year have been really getting to me | suicide |
School causing me depression and suicidal thoughtsTo start this I want to inform you that I am male in th grade. I started feeling depressed years ago and it has never gone away but it wasnt that bad. Half way through th grade it started to get very bad, I got to the point where I started cutting. I then had a week of brutal arguments with parents about trying to homeschool for the rest of the year. (Which I won) So I am a year old home schooled child. I never had many friends and my mother is an alcoholic. I want to kill myself because I feel like it is the only way out. I have thigh about trying to drop out so the burden of constant homework and grade would stop and I could enjoy my life before Im an adult. My parents dont seem to care but I am scared of failing and causing permanent damage to myself. I have tried telling my parents but they brush it off every time. What can I do? Im getting closer and closer to the edge at this point. | suicide |
I just want to be gone already.Im about to go to college and all my friends going to different ones with plans just makes me realize I cant really do anything with my own life. I was good with writing last semester of high school, but I havent been able to write ANYTHING good for goddamn months. Thats basically my only possible route. Cant really work that well, i forget things much more than others, Im basically dead weight. I have cystic fibrosis thats pretty bad and I have like different lung infections that we can only delay. Whats the goddamn point of me being around when I feel too tired from all the meds to do anything half the time? Ive tried to make it work, but fuck. It cant. It isnt meant to be. I shouldnt be alive. I really wish I had died when I was born, then I wouldnt even have to consider this, but oh well. | suicide |
To all the virgins who like kitties The inside of your mouth is made of the same material as the inside of a puthay do what u will with this information | non-suicide |
I love y'all, man. That's it, i just really love you, I'm happy right now | non-suicide |
Ive spent hours working on a single project for graphic design and Im still not done (advice needed) I hate this class so much. I probably couldve gotten in done in under an hour if I wasnt so detailed with it. I decided to try my best since I missed two of the graphic design zooms in a row. I wanted to get all of my missing assignments done for all of my classes today but if its taken me hours to only do two I dont think thats possible, especially since its already : am. Maybe I could just pull an all nighter since I have a half day of school tomorrow and I could just take a nap after. What do you think I should do? | non-suicide |
I actually feel like Im dead I dont have any real interests and all I do at this point is see other people having all this fun. Im bored out of my mind, Im extremely unproductive, I dont feel like doing ANYTHING. I just dont see myself having a future. I have no idea what the fuck Im supposed to do and Im just this person who doesnt have any aspirations or hope for anything. I kind of just go along with whatever happens to me. I genuinely dont have anything to say about myself. I have no impact on anyones life whatsoever and I dont know what my purpose is other than taking up space. I seriously dont even know how to RELATE to people sometimes bc theyre so into things you know?? Like they have stuff they enjoy doing and they have an actual life to talk about while I have NOTHING. Nothing at all | non-suicide |
I think I'm going to run away at and not tell anyone I know it sounds cliche but I hate this fucking town and all towns around it including the people. The people are horrible, I have yet to find a person that didn't fuck me up in some way. As soon as I hit I'll be gone, I don't know where but somewhere far away to start my life over. The past won't exist to me and I'll do my best to do shit right this time. more years and I'll be free, I just have to hold on for a bit | non-suicide |
Im tiredI dont know if I can keep this up anymore. Ive been back and forth on suicide since I was twelve and now I am nineteen and nothing is happening yet everyday I imagine myself going up to the roof and jumping off. I have a key because I am an employee. It would be how I did it. I bought a cat so I would have something to live for but I feel like Ive just cursed its life. Hed be happier in another home anyways. I dont want to do this anymore, I dont know how to say anything else. I just want out. There are people who love me and I am going to hurt them because I am a terrible person. I cant help it, I need to die like my cat needs to eat. | suicide |
Searching for a reason to live...And I'll I'm finding are reasons to go. | suicide |
Why am I getting ads in some Germanic language Probably because I have my vpn set to the Netherlands and Im listening to Norwegian pop music | non-suicide |
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Is something wrong with me? Whenever I end an anime series, I fell depressed Plz someone help me :( | non-suicide |
A fucking bug bit me in the balls Probably a spider or mosquito or something else. I don't know. But a fucking bug bit me in the balls | non-suicide |
Help! I formatted an external sd card as internal and it still says storage space running out and won't let me install apps or transfer apps to the sd card Yeah I spent dollars on the sd card and it won't let me do anything to it. I formatted as internal, in my files all it says that I have gb of free space on my internal storage, and I genuinely don't know what to do. It's a Moto g power. Help please | non-suicide |
Is America seriously having a third wave rn??!!!! bruh. I'm not even from America but looking at your covid graph is so annoying. | non-suicide |
Not sure if this is allowed but Im here if anyone wants to talkIm /female and Im not gonna give you corny lines like it gets better. Life fucking sucks yo. Lol. And I hate cops so Im not trying to pull any shady shit either. I just know how it feels. And Im in a dark place right now and I know the only thing thats gonna help me feel better is helping someone else feel better. Some people made me feel like absolute shit today when I did nothing wrong. Kicked me while I was in my lowest point. I want to die, but Im not going to kill myself. On another note - WHY does the phone autocorrect it to milk myself Anyway. Im gonna be online a little while longer tonight. If anyone wants someone to just listen, Im here. Im not biased. Not religious. Just an unemployed girl whos alone. With a dog. If I dont answer, Ill be back online in the morning. I am here for you. | suicide |
Running out of excusesBeen suicidal for over years now. There's nothing I want more than to just put a bullet through my head. I've been to University counseling, taken meds, but they don't help. It sucks, because my depression is not environmental, it's completely internal, complete coming from me. I just want to end this. I'm running out of excuses not to. I need to do this for myself. I feel this is not living at all. Living a life with constant suicidal thoughts, dreaming about it when I'm sleeping. For years it's been the same. I haven't changed one bit. I just keep finding myself in this endless cycle of ruining myself, my life, and disappointing my friends and family. I know it'd be selfish in some way to just suddenly leave those I care about and care about me, but I want to do this one selfish thing, because I can't bring myself to keep living anymore. I just don't want to bring anyone the pain or blame on themselves, when I'm gone. Instead, I fantasize that there were some injection that would just give me a terminal illness, making it look like it weren't suicide. I just wish I got cancer or something and could die, that way it would seem inevitable, and no one would feel responsible. Just a bad stroke of luck. Anyone else know what I'm babbling on about here? | suicide |
Flowing Rivers of Bloodworthless useless ugly hopeless pointless abandoned miserable pain crying no-good insignificant meaningless wretched valueless nothing poor empty depleted futile unimportant lost desperate helpless despondent broken beyond repair irreparable ruined destroyed obliterated lost ready to die | suicide |
Posting everyday until I meet me inevitable demise, my tragic end. Day This song is very interesting to me. Its very technical in the way its produced. Also it doesnt really have a structure yet it flows so well. Pretty emotional in a weird way. [ | non-suicide |
Damn i really feel suicidal right nowI cant do this anymore. :/ | suicide |
I almost beat my former offender to death from junior high and high school a bit of context when I was in primary and secondary school I had a bully that harassed and attacked me, it caused me many problems with depression and anxiety, it made my life impossible and I currently suffer from social anxiety. I recently ran into my old aggressor, he was no longer the same, he had already matured and he apologized that is fine but it made him explode and I remember everything that made me go through everything that I am going through because of him and at the moment he asked me to I will forgive him as if nothing came to him and I beat him so much that it left him very serious and if I killed him and I felt good but I don't like to feel like that. I'm confused. How should I feel? should I be relieved? O well? please help | suicide |
I'm in the hospital now. days ago I attempted to kill myself. I went to my favourite place, down by the lake in the city I used to live in. I took a h overnight bus ride to kill myself. I bought a bottle of pills and took the whole thing. And then I waited. I walked around down by the lake, and if I wasn't waiting for the meds to kick it, it would have been quite a nice walk. Then I had to pee. Of course, because it's winter time all the washrooms by the lake are closed. So I walked up the road to a gas station and used the bathroom, then walked across the street to a coffee shop and used a payphone out front to call an ambulance. First time I had ever ridden in an ambulance. I was still coherent and perfectly lucid and remember everything. I had to drink charcoal, still as gross as I remember it. They pulled blood for testing every hours the first night, then slightly less frequently. Poison control were the ones who ordered that. My arm is covered in bruises. And I have a h guard to keep me from leaving or hurting myself. Not that I will, its stupid to try and hurt yourself in a hospital. I'm pretty sure the R.N. that dealt with me in emergency resented me. It makes me feel worse that I wasted all their time. I know it won't be long after I leave here before I'll try it again. I got them to hold me till Monday, but I don't know what to do after that... | suicide |
What do you do when the last person who cares is gone?If I disappeared tomorrow, no one would miss me. That is not an exaggeration. No friends, little family. If I died, no one would notice until I began to stink up the place or missed rent for half a year. This realization hurts me physically and takes my breath away. | suicide |
Watching Suicide Videos Helps Me DelayFor some reason the gruesome and grotesque reality inspires me to delay my suicide. I was planning to do it when my Mom died, but now the shock of it sometimes makes me want to wait later in life or at least until I'm at the point of no return. Just sharing a tip for others. | suicide |
all i can think abouti live a great life surrounded by a lot of people who genuinely care for me. but all i can think about is cracking my neck and finally ridding this world of myself. anytime im alone all i can think about is dying. my life has been falling apart around me for the last couple weeks and it feels like everything i do is meaningless. i have nowhere to turn so i wanted to post this, in case i dont wake up in the morning. | suicide |
dm me but u only get minutes to do it with me before we never talk to each other again whos up for it!!! first come first serve to the u/lcztie speedrun | non-suicide |
DAE ever.... Take a headache nap because you're thoughts are crowded and your body aches, fall asleep and don't know you're thinking loundly or dreaming weirdly and wake up confused and light headed? | non-suicide |
I'm so done with my stupid math teacher So at the beginning of the week, my math teacher sent us a bunch of papers to do by next week because she was supposed to be sick this week. I thought I could just do them this weekend but yesterday at . pm my fucking math teacher E-mails us that we need to have half of the papers finished by tomorrow because she is going to be digitally in class. None of my classmates had it by then so we had to rush and do it during the break and the worst part about this was that it was a math theme that we had not fucking done before and she just wanted us to do it without her being there or let alone explaining how to do it. The next question we had was how would we get inside our classroom without the teacher being present so we thought we would have to sit in the hall all class. But then low and behold my fucking math teacher shows up who is supposed to be at home because she was sick, we were all very confused as she locks herself into the classroom and sets up the projector. Next, she tells us to go inside and leaves the classroom to go teach us digitally from another room like what the fuck? She even said that she was technically on sick leave and isn't allowed to come too close to us yet she is walking through this packed school. The class basically completely fails because my teacher didn't set up the pc correctly and nothing works right. So my fucking teacher comes up with this genius idea of pushing math (digitally at home) class to : (school normally ends at pm). All of my class were of course overjoyed that they could listen to my math teachers incoherent blabbering after school /s. I did not show up to the online class because my nerves were at their limits. But how was your day? | non-suicide |
The lies need to stopSome people dont understand that they are the reason or a part of the reason we feel the way we do. They lie so causally withhold the truth and convince you of things that could never be. Its both hurtful and damaging to the receiving end i cant take it. I just dont understand why people lie I never will | suicide |
Tonight is especially badThe shadows won't leave me alone and I'm too scared to turn out the lights. I can't think straight and it is hard to focus righr now. Im so tired but im too scared to try and sleep. Schizophrenia sucks. Im always afraid to talk to people irl with ths stuff. Im trying to distract myself but it isnt working now. Im tempted to go get my mossberg and just end it all. Im so fucking tired of being scared all th time.im sick of pretending im hsppy and fine but im not. I just want to die and not have to be afraid of everything ever again. | suicide |
deceiving title that doesnt reveal the content of the post happy belated titty tuesday dm me pls | non-suicide |
Reading holographic principle is tearing me apart I need someone to help meI started reading about the holographic principle and it has been killing me, it's triggered my ocd the worst it's ever been and I just feel like ending it all. Someone said this to me "It says that what we see happening in three dimensions might be controlled from somewhere else. You think you are a body walking arround but you are actually somewhere else controlling the body. Even that sounds extremely theoretical and like a long stretch" This idea has driven me crazy, what's the point in living if this is the case? Could someone refute what the person has said? Is the person wrong or right? | suicide |
I've deteriorated into thisSorry for the wall of text. I'm drunk, I'm desperate, I need help. At the tender age of I've realized life is not all what it is portrayed to be. I have trouble in social contexts, literally misinterpreting social cues, and leaving others dazed by my often bizarre actions. I'm sure if I had money and went to a psychiatrist I'd be diagnosed as Asperger's, but even if I had money I hate the idea of labeling people, so fuck that. I've never had any true friends in life, no one to call when I've needed it the most. What I do have thankfully is a loving family who does care about me. Over the past year I've declined mentally, abusing weed and alcohol to dumb the very pain that eats me up physically and mentally. I've stopped smoking but continue to drink from time to time. I've dropped out of university and entering into a practical nursing program. I honesty am not enjoying it that much but it's only semester one so things may change for the better... I was practically forced by my parents, even though I suggested to them that I wanted to learn a trade, or work up in Northern Canada (mining, drilling.. they have a certificate program that I've been interested since I've left high school, but they feel the work is beneath me and are strongly opposed. I really feel the need to leave my city (population of and live the rest of my life in the country as city life stresses me out beyond belief.) I have nothing to lose so why not? I also feel I'm mentally ill. I'm severely depressed. More frighteningly I think I might have earlier onset schizophrenia. Every so often (not all the time) I'm starting to see things out the corner of me eye, occasionally hear my name being called by people, and am intensely paranoid that people are all secretly out to get me. Nothing seems real either, almost like a derealization or something. I really want to someone I settle down with (girl) in the future but that seems unlikely as all the quality girls seem to be taken. (cliche I know but pretty accurate). What the hell am I supposed to do?! | suicide |
I'm confused as to why I haven't done it yetI have all the reasons to do it; and I have no reasons to live. I kill myself in my head, in every viable method, thousands of times every day. I plan over and over for every variance. What angle? What caliber? How thick shall the rope be? From what height? What time of day? Do I leave a note? Handwritten? Emailed? etc. etc... I'm miserable, but I don't ever execute these plans; I distract myself from reality by becoming Nietzsche's last man, seeking nothing but entertainment, and sleeping for + hours at a time. **I then make a post like this even though nothing ever comes of it and I'm backed into the same corner soon enough.** Surely, this is hell and I am being punished; that is why I'm unable to kill myself even though it's the right -- nay, the only thing left to do. "Sleep is good, death is better; but of course, the best thing would to have never been born at all" | suicide |
change in habits suddenly? recently i just stopped playing video games like all together just cold turkey without even realising it i now spend more time writing and producing music for the hell of it what is going on this is not normal | non-suicide |
surviving schoolso school actually makes me wanna Kermit, I'm sure it's like that with other people too but I genuinely can't anymore, I just want to be left to die in my room every morning when I wake up and I think about how okay I'd be if I didn't wake up and night, I've gone through all my options, school counselors, telling my mom I wanna die, telling teachers, friends, suicide hotlines, and I've even attempted, but one, my therapist, I would tell her but then she'd send me to a mental hospital and my family can't afford it everyday is worse and I'm afraid I might do it again, the anniversary of my first attempt is coming up (march th) what if I don't make it past? IDK I'm just sick of being so alone I'm a fucking year old with a suicide attempt and mental illnesses under my belt, can't I have a break? please give me a break | suicide |
please talk to meEverything's gone I'm an idiot i And fell for a scam. Its all gone I can't breathe I don't knop\w what to do please talk to me | suicide |
Everyone hates meOkay...I give my mom hints by talking down about myself (I'm an idiot, what if I died; what would my family do if I died) and always talk about ways to kill myself. I nearly confessed that I hated myself for everything. But everytime I try to tell someone about; two things are stopping me. One: The fact that I am an introverted person (Kinda a tsundere) and I can't open up to people I know very well. Two: MY MOM WON'T LISTEN!!! She told me I can talk to her about anything....but if it is not of any importance to her, then she'd just wave me off. I tried venting to her, but then I turn and see her on the phone. It's like she doesn't care her teenager is suicidal and wants to die by killing herself. She just doesn't listen, it's like she doesn't want to hear my voice or see me again. My siblings are like that too. But we hear each other out, and agree with what the other says. It's like someone started to listen. But a while ago, I heard all three of them (all boys) talking trash about me. One even came to my face and told me: "You should just die." Me right now: "If I am such a bugger, how about I kill myself? Would you'd be satisfied you don't have a sister to worry about anymore? Of course you would. No one listens." I don't miss any of the good times I've had with my family. They all just had fake smiles on their faces, while I yap away like I'm a mental person. I can't crack jokes like any of them can, I can't speak to anyone like they can, I can't bring the courage to even vent to anyone. Maybe I should kill myself so everyone can have a real smile on their face. | suicide |
The "You're lucky" arguement is stupid.All it does is make you feel worse about yourself and make you start wondering if you're an entitled bitch. It doesnt help to say, "You're born in america! Live the dream!" Yeah I probably would if I wasnt being compared to make me feel "better" | suicide |
I don't know why i posted thisTomorrow is my last day. I have it all set out, at midnight tomorrow i will walk down to the lake near my house with a few beers for my final drink and enough pills to hopefully kill me, i already have the note written. I'm gonna send two texts to the people who i feel i should say something to. One of them to a girl thanking her for all the help shes given me with my depression and suicidal thoughts, and the other to a different girl asking if she could watch over my ex as she said she would kill herself if anyone she knew committed suicide. I don't know why im posting this i guess just to explain my thoughts of what my final moment will be like. | suicide |
Hey my freinds started a youtube channel were they play minecraft. If you wanna check it out the link is below. | non-suicide |
I want to get the CoronavirusI'm sick of life. I'm not sure why people that want to live are dropping like flies when I actually want to die and I'm still here. | suicide |
Any advice on how to live without genitals? Hi, I'm an eighteen year old AFAB agender. I plan on removing my genitals, and it seems due to a recent talk with my family it might be happening soon. I'm a bit worried about what my life will be like without a vagina. I'm nervous on how people (especially girls I like) will treat me when I don't have genitals. I'm also a bit worried about how I'm going to masturbate and have sex once those parts are gone. I'm definitely going to have it done, but I'd definitely like advice on how to live like this. | non-suicide |
I'm tired of living.Having lived through difficult years of life I can finally say for certain now that I don't want to live for another . Life has no meaning, we are simply on this planet to reproduce and die. Having no desire myself, to reproduce my existence on this planet will just be a waste of resources. I have been trying so hard since I was a but a wee lass to find the things that made me want to survive every year I find less and less. I have literally contemplated suicide since I was about six or seven. I have kept going purely for the sake of those around me, those who love me but even that is becoming hard to do now. I feel so selfish for just wanting to give up but at the same time I just can't see myself holding on for much longer. I used to be able to pull myself out of the gutter for at least a small amount of time but now the cravings of death haunt me everyday. I want to make it look like an accident, no one will know that I took my own life, it will help with the grieving I figure. Life is slowly crushing me to death. I can't shake this depression. Someone help me please. | suicide |
I woke up Why did i wake up? I said i never wanted to wakeup again Yet i woke up I don't want to wake up [rickroll ]( [rickroll ]( | non-suicide |
This may be my end.After a technical glitch resulted in not being able to properly communicate with my newly met friend I have decided to try again at ending my life. Possibly - unless this gets resolved (in which case this will be deleted). If not, then this was the straw that broke the camel's back because I *cannot take this anymore.* It may also be fate/god/whatever blasphemy you believe in way of saying I don't deserve to have friends. The sole purpose of this post is to give the handful of people I have met via reddit and exchange a sentence with every once in a great while a reason why I may have 'disappeared.' Other subreddits I may have rather posted this under have either been banned or just simply cannot be found by someone as stupid as me anymore. | suicide |
Petition to make "Shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck" the new filler text. Shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck Shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck Shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck Shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck Shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck | non-suicide |
Boy who cried wolf?(f) Me and my mom got into a fight because I told her that I felt like my sister was favored (I told my dad that so he texted her), and that I wanted to die. She's sent me to the psych ward before and knows it made me worse. So she says "I'll send you away to the psych ward." She then said that I don't care about any one else in the family and that i'm selfish and difficult. I told her "If i'm that much of a burden I'll be gone." So after that she told me i'm the boy who cried wolf and that i'm saying it to manipulate her. Guess what? The boy who cried wolf is dead. And maybe soon if i'm lucky I will be too. I'll prove to my mom that i'm not lying. If I stayed alive it'd be worse. I'm sick of life and everything so...hey. Why not? I'm just born as a burden to everyone around me. I don't even see myself to grow up into the career I want. Don't say what you usually say. I've already heard it. "You have a future." "Don't kill yourself." "Stay strong." "I deal with the same things." I'm goddamn tired. If there was actually anything to live for I wouldn't feel this way. :) | suicide |
Since I don't act depressed, nobody believes me when I say I am depressed. When I try to talk to my loved ones about my depression, when I try to tell them that I am constantly thinking about suicide, I'm just told to stop saying that. | suicide |
I think I tried killing myself for the first time todayI've been having a very, very rough year. I have chronic illnesses that I've been suffering from, and they recently got worse. Let's just say I have a depressing and lonely life by anyone's standards. For the past few months I've been thinking about suicide almost on a daily basis, but I never had the courage to actually do anything about it, until today. I've been in a terrible mood since I woke up, so I decided to tie a belt around my neck. I didn't do it tight enough to feel any substantial pain, but it was hard to breathe. I was afraid I'd pass out, so I removed the belt and felt a slight rush for a few minutes afterwards... I really want to do it again, but I don't fully understand why. Strangely, I also feel very little towards this particular incident. But most of the time I feel empty anyways, so this may be extension of that. I also kind of want to tell my dad about it because we are somewhat close and he knows about my depression. I know it's bad but I don't particularly care if he gets upset about it. Can I please talk to someone (over PM) about what just happened? | suicide |
I want some love (F)Can somebody please talk to me? I need some comfort and love tonight. No compromise, I just really need it. | suicide |
Every girl I see says I'm ugly and should kill myself.Well, should I? I mean, if I'm such an ugly piece of shit,I'll never get a girlfriend or married or anything. Why shouldn't I do it? | suicide |
I know this may be unsettling, but I'm pretty sure this is my last night here. I think I've just reached the point where it's just become too much. I've talked about what has happened to me before. I've posted here before. But I think I'm just ready to try killing myself again. I'm just so unhappy. I don't even know why I'm posting. I guess I wanted to say goodbye to someone. Just have someone listen to me for a few minutes and not think I'm crazy. This is what I truly want. Thank you all for trying to help me. I wish everyone the best of luck in their fight. I'm sorry if this is inappropriate. | suicide |
How a REAL MAN flirts: Please maam will you, will you let me slide into your DMs. Please maam. | non-suicide |
Anyone up to chat? Yeah im bored. Just need somebody to talk to tbh | non-suicide |
help how do u speedrun through life made a promise id live until so. please help how the Fuck do i make this go faster /srs | non-suicide |
I'm not strong enough to liveWhen I was younger I was much more fit to live but last few years changed me and I have become very weak and sensitive to everything.Everything has become impossibile and x more harder.I have no motivation to even be emotionaly strong again.At this point death is my only future.I have my method ready. | suicide |
Preparing for the endI have a whole list. At least different ways one can stop their vitals from functioning, resulting in cardiac arrest, a split spine, asphyxiation, neurological shock - therefore, death. Then there's the list for hiding one's own cadaver. For those who are unacquainted, you'd be surprised how easy it is to hide and disappear in this world even if it's packed with people. Day after day, I feel less and less afraid of executing any of these methods. I have already acquired some of the resources for what is on the list. I cannot complain nor can I cry. I have a life many would want. Any criticism I have towards life as we know it would be nothing but a failure's excuse. Yet time and time again - life just seemed like nothing more than an endless, pointless road which demanded persistence and confidence where all people ultimately cared about is winning - nothing more. Every passing hour, I keep reminding myself over and over that I just cannot come to terms with what being human is about. All I see is that being human is repulsive. Disgusting. Abhorrent. Filthy. It has escalated to the point that being happy just doesn't feel like enough, or even worse, it feels like I do not deserve to be happy at all. Life as a pointless, endless journey with such little yield of reward for the most questionable purposes - it was such a horrifying thought. After around a year or so of contemplating thoughts daily of leaving this earth, horror became absurdity. Life, as daunting as it still is, became ridiculous, nonsensical, stupid, primitive. I kept asking myself why I am here, why *all* of us are here. I write this message to those far and wide who share the same concerns and have perceived the same horrors. Chances are I will no longer be in a year or less. If so, then it is what the world willed. | suicide |
Hate everything about myselfI am hideous and stupid. I want to go away forever. I can't stand people looking at me, can't stand being seen by others. And I am getting so much worse: getting uglier, getting dumber, getting lazier, losing whatever hopes I used to have about getting my shit together. So much would have to change in order for me to feel that life was tolerable. I want to jump out of my skin. No one is ever going to want to be with me, because I am profoundly unattractive, and I have no other appealing qualities. No one has ever expressed attraction to me, and no one ever will. As sad as that makes me, the thought of actually physically being with another person makes me want to vomit. No one wants to touch me, and I don't want to touch anyone, so there's nothing to be done. I will be this way for the rest of my short pathetic life. So I'm going to stay in my room alone until I get so numb I don't even miss anything anymore. | suicide |
Self post weekend active time to introduce myself. Ignore my username. My name is Lanson the wolf or you can call me Tom. I am currently in year in sunny queensland in Australia. Yes i am a furry.(any haters? Deal with it) i will be starting a IT traineeship next year during the second half of the year. I have autism which if you have any questions about it feel free to ask. In my spare time I game and stream along with making videos. Feel free to ask me anything. | non-suicide |
Just wanted to say its my birthday Thats it, thats the post... | non-suicide |
Is premarital hugging illegal? Cause I'm gonna be able to legally hug my sister in a few days but I rly wanna do it now. | non-suicide |
Its am and I'm sending silly snaps back and forth with my crush Life is good | non-suicide |
Are there any interesting reads?I'm looking for articles or a very good book on the philosophy of life, death, and everything in between. Whether it concerns the life itself, cosmic or social, human behaviour - not very much religion. I'm simply fascinated by this topic. I'm a huge fan of Allan Watts and Terrance Mckenna. As long as it's a good, interesting read, I would love it if you were to share it with me. Much love! | suicide |
Day # of recommending songs. [xxxtentacion - never]( My head be like. | non-suicide |
Is Allie DeBerry like the last unicorm or do i have horny problem Is that Cheems? | non-suicide |
I'm looking forward to tomorrow I haven't met my friends in a while. There's a total lockdown where you can't even leave your street if you're a minor!!! But now we can and we're going to eat somewhere I missed them :( | non-suicide |
So how do i get money to buy things i dont need? Like do i ask someone to give me a job? Or can i just give away a link to people telling them to give me money and whatever they think is fair pay goes directly to a credit card i own? | non-suicide |
I had a weird af dream so basically I was flying on a paper aeroplane w my friends and mid flight, the paper tore and I fell off. I was still very much alive. idk why but i fell somewhere far away from my friends and I was all alone. I then bought a pizza and ate it all by myself bc I was pissed | non-suicide |
Were getting our first dog since our last dog past away in january and i couldnt be happier Title. We will get it on tuesday and i cant wait. We got a kitten in may to help cope and i hope that they will get along. | non-suicide |
...It's hard to focus when you're always thinking of something else. Even though it's not hard to | suicide |
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