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Question about IB and AP programs in schools. I have gotten accepted into both AP and IB, now I need to figure out which one I want to take. If anyone here has done one of these programs please tell me what it was like, as well as how many years it lasts. I believe IB lasts years but I am not certain. | non-suicide |
Lots of thoughts, lots of reasons.I've always thought about. Never thought I'd have the balls to follow through. I still don't think I do, but I can't help but fantasize about the idea of "leaving". My own very temporary and usually triggered bouts of depression are enough to trigger the fantasies and I start to question existence. Why am I here? Why do I have to deal with horrible people? What's the point of existing if existence can't be enjoyable? The weird thing is that I have a pretty decent life, lots of friends, a good middle class job, a girlfriend... Not sure what to do. | suicide |
y of a stupid a fantasyHi, my name Andrs Im latn American yo stupid motherfucker and I hate my self, I dont know what real love feels like I dont what a real friend is since Ive told to my best friend that I wanted to kill myself in tears and desperation looking for someone to tell me to not do it but she didnt care that much she told me to look for help and then left.... my family..... well my mom knows and also a cousin thats like my sister knows that I want to kill myself they didnt did much, they just shake it off and proceeded to not talk about it anymore. I dont know what to do since I hate myself and I want to kill myself cause I hate myself but dont how to stop hating myself, also dont know who else to reach out cause I cant afford professional help and Ive reached out to professional institutions but none have a help program I could attend to.... Im writing this cause I dont know what else to do and I might do it since I cant find a reason for me to live for.... Sorry to bother just let me end in pain. | suicide |
Im going to have to end my lifeI dont enjoy any aspect of life, and its been this way my entire life. I hate working a dead end job with no future, and I am not smart enough or even really motivated enough to study and maybe have a slim chance of getting something better. And even if I did, I still wouldnt be able to afford a house and retire quickly. Ive completely lost interest in my hobbies, and the only emotion I feel nowadays is a burst of anger in an endless sea of apathy. I dont like this society. Now theres this pandemic exposing the rich for the evil parasites they are, letting people die just so they can keep their money. And this is supposed to be one of the easiest times to live as a person. But I cant cut it. So Im going to cut my throat and the artery in my leg, and finally get the peace I want. Not sure why I am posting this, guess I just wanted to feel special that Im going through with this. Thank you | suicide |
Help for a friendI have a friend that is having trouble with her boyfriend that shes been with for years and has a house with. She has been struggling with depression for just as long but its gotten much worse recently and shes relapsed on cutting as well. Shes going through an extremely stressful time bc shes not happy with her boyfriend and is thinking about leaving him. And shes been having suicidal thoughts and has been telling me about them. About how she wishes she wouldve ended it years ago when she tried, how she just wants it to be over and shes done fighting to be happy. She fought with her boyfriend today, then texted me and told me not to tell anyone but she wrote a suicide note today. What do I need to do to help her? I cant fucking stand not knowing what to do. | suicide |
finally opened up to my therapist and she cried lol i kinda feel bad for like dumping so much stuff on one person. but fuck the person that gave me so much trauma | non-suicide |
I failed at my attempt but afterwards these are some words that helped meI failed days ago, but thats okay. Parts of me which I didnt fail, but I reached out and theses are some words that help me stabilize a bit. I hope some of you read this and it helps as well. Your absence will leave a void similar to yours but mine will always remain because youre not there. Your absence will throw my entire life off course. Its your duty to bury your parents not the other way around. If I had to bury my child, I will be devastated. There would be no words or actions I could do to mend that wound. If you done all you can, then you can at least live on, for others, and hopefully one day you can live for you You dont want us to find out by your mom telling us youre no longer with us Ill be punching the air because theres no one to blame but myself. Itll make me wonder is there more I could have done the last time we were together. Two days ago, I was at my end. I was no longer willing to move towards the future, but I reached out. Im not strong enough to do this alone, and I took a step to attempt to get better. Im not a quitter and Im damn well not going to cut this attempt at life short. Im not sure what everyone is facing, but let me face it with you. | suicide |
im going to bed getting all the images for the [starter pack]( meme took forever so im going to sleep | non-suicide |
If there is a god, he doesnt care about me nor if I commit suicide.I wasnt one of his chosen ones Ive done horrible things and have sinned in ways that are unfathomable to most people. This leaves me to believe I am not chosen by him and he has no problem throwing me in hell because of what Ive done. | suicide |
I am officially now Well good luck figuring out what you need with this information, i just wanna say reddit has been really helpfull and a great distraction from all the shit in my mind, oh boy i shouldve known how badly this year would effect my mental health... but who cares? I am going to ignore my birthday, but i lowkey hope someone will remember (what probably isnt the case...) covid is a good reason to have an excuse for not giving a sweet party... i mean nobody wouldve come anyway so now it wont be awkward. I low key hope i find myself a girlfriend or actual real non toxic friends when I become or something, it would really help me with my loneliness but i mean i can understand why i am hated tho... but yea if you told me a year ago how fucked this year would be I probably already killed myself... i just wish i get a lot happier and more social next year A happy birthday it wont be, because Ill be working and spend the rest of the time alone in my room, but thats fine i guess... i am used to it Oh and happy birthday to the other people i saw on this sub who share birthdays. Ima gonna sleep now | non-suicide |
American Question for the gang in Germany(or anyone in Europe in general): So recently Ive been looking into the Germany education system. Instead of being forced to do the same crap as everyone else in the U.S until you graduate, in Germany your parents get to choose if you work on more academic stuff or work on trade skills with slight variations of options. Do you guys like that education system or is it meh | non-suicide |
UK looking for friends Hey I'm a person. Hopefully you can read this. Be my friend or something please | non-suicide |
The problem is how.If I could just press a button that would cause me unimaginable pain for hours and in the leave me dead, I would press it. Because I don't care about the pain or time of pain. I care about method and the time to change your mind. If a button press is enough to kill I would do it. | suicide |
I thought i was getting better...surprise surprise im not better. And i never will be. Im sick of this lifeI cant i just cant. Im sorry. | suicide |
Anyone try painkillers and a hose from exhaust to window (lots of duct tape)?I have tried self strangulation (so painful), overdosing (so difficult) and think this is the best method... | suicide |
Who else has that friend who always sits on the seat part of the table whereas you sit on top the table? I always looking down on him and he always looking up to me | non-suicide |
Dont think I can make it through the HolidaysIts dark at : now. Last night I went to the bar with an old friend and felt such a profound sense of alienation that Im not sure is ever going to lift. It felt like the curtain just came down, and now everything is black. Ive been going through a depressive episode since September now, and its only getting worse. Ive been depressed since I was ten years old. Im on medication, but it doesnt seem to help. Im tired of always reaching out to my friends, they never reach out or even WANT to hang out with me or spend time together. My mom is unstable and my dad is always mad at me. The man I love broke up with this month and I cant move on. He told me that he would spend time with me today because you shouldnt be alone on a holiday but its almost midnight and he hasnt called or said anything and I am alone. Im just so alone and I dont see any way out. Ive been lonely for so long, and felt so alone and alienated and separated from everything that everyone else is supposed to have, I have no one and I have nothing, and I dont think its worth it to keep trying. Im just so tired | suicide |
Reaching outMy mind is currently pacing with overwhelming thoughts of suicide and helplessness. I have no comfort zone to escape these feelings like I used to, I feel like I am in a combat zone without a weapon to protect myself from myself | suicide |
I don't trust my PE teacher's skills at all. I live a pretty active life, with daily fitness training (I have an absolutely incredible personal trainer) so I wouldn't say I am fragile. Yesterday our new PE teacher in my school made us do exercises without proper warm-up which I commented on immediately but no one seemed to care. That same class I got a very painful leg cramp for - minutes and I can barely bend my legs since. I can barely walk. My trainer offered free before and after training stretching for me and that does help a lot, it makes my much more mobile for a couple hours. After that it goes back to being incredibly painful. I'm considering going to a doctor. How can I trust my teacher with my health and safety after that? What should I do? | non-suicide |
I don't know what to do anymore.I'm and been struggling with depression ever since I was . I've kept it hidden from everyone except for a few professionals. I've only recently been diagnosed though. I thought finally getting a diagnosis would help, but I feel even worse. I was referred by my GP to a professional around weeks ago. I was assessed by a mental health nurse that didn't take me seriously at all. I told her about my self harm and suicidal thoughts. I told her that I think about suicide every single day, but she didn't seem to care. She told me that I don't need treatment, since I'm apparently just stressed, although my college counsellor disagrees with her. I've got really close to killing myself in the past, but I feel like now it's got to the point where I'm actually going to do it. This is the most unhappy I've ever felt. I was suppose to kill myself when I was . One night when I was I was at someone's house looking after their kids. I looked in one of the cupboards in the kitchen and found numerous different prescription drugs. I decided then that I would take an overdose. One of the kids I was looking after came to the kitchen while I was about to start taking the prescription drugs, so I stopped what I was doing. I regret not ending it all that day. I don't know what to do anymore. Whenever I think about my future it just seems to be completely hopeless. I don't see a point in anything anymore, and as a result I've reached the point where I've given up on trying to get decent grades. I don't want to live with depression for the rest of my life. It doesn't seem like I'll ever be happy again. I'd rather be dead than to live like this. I'm struggling so much but not even professionals take me seriously, so suicide is the only solution I have. | suicide |
i just wanna be a cute gamer girl or something like that | non-suicide |
Isn't it lovely Complete the sentence | non-suicide |
Im currently in an ambulance carI told my girlfriend I was trying to overdose, and she got extremely worried and stuff~ eventually her parents found her crying at : in the morning so they called and here I am... I regret so many decisions and actions Ive done. This was incredibly dumb of me and ironically I just want to die even more to end it after now. Im being taken to a teen pych ward~ hopefully I can get out tomorrow. What the fuck is wrong with my life. No... what the fuck is wrong with me? | suicide |
okay but like, when you get to choose a song and your friends skip it sucks pretty much title - like, i can listen to most music but i prefer the more punk and emo, but it always gets skipped when i have the aux :( thanks for coming to my ted talk or whatever | non-suicide |
Im done...I give upI cant take anymore...Im done, Im just...done, done with everything, Im especially done with love...everyone is fake, everyone likes to pretend they care then theyll either betray me or abandon me I have absolutely no one now, my ex girlfriend has moved on with someone else, I lost all my friends, my family are barley even aware of my existence and my life keeps going downhill...things do not get better things has only gotten worse for me....I honestly doubt anyone will read this at this point but Im done, Im years old and all my years Ive only gone through hell and Ive only been toxic I guess Im just doomed...Im done, I give up I cant take anymore its time for me to go...to think all this effort I put into my life...only for it to end like this...just how cruel it really is huh...well I guess this is it for me...this will be the last post Im probly gonna make before everything ends for me...Im gonna attempt to suicide next morning...goodbye...goodbye everyone | suicide |
Can't take it anymore.So, here I am again. I've posted here before and have still the same problems. I hate my life, myself and the way I am. Idgaf about school anymore and go maybe like times per week cause I have no energy and motivation to get up. I just want to sleep, dream something nice and everyday I wish my life was going to end soon. I only have like people that I really care about, one friend that I already told about my depression and is probably the best friend I've ever had, and a girl that i love and want to be friend with at the same time. I dont know if she knows but that doesnt matter. She hugs me a lot and that's the only nice thing in my life. These are the only people I care about. But at the same time I wish I'd have never met them. Killing myself would be so easy if nobody knows me. But there's also my family and other friends. Would it be fair to run away from my pain, but maybe destroy their life? Is it selfish, fair, unfair? I dont know anymore, I'm confused and I just want my pain to stop. I suffer everyday and my only wish right now is that noone knows me so I could die in silence and nobody would miss me. Thats all i want, but it's impossible. And that fucking sucks. | suicide |
hellloooo newww I had finals today but here I am again | non-suicide |
If I write a will to give all of my money to someone, and then kill myself, will the money still go to them?Don't worry, IF I kill myself it will only be decades down the line from now. I just want to know if the money will still go to them even if I kill myself, or if for some reason it can't because of suicide. | suicide |
GUYS I DID IT!!! I came out to my parents as a sex offender and they were supper supportive. | non-suicide |
I missed the curve and now i know it's a dead end up ahead.I dropped out of engineering years ago and this summer re-enrolled myself because no other options were remaining. (Parental pressure) Very bad at math,and almost every subject. Skipping classes and doing nothing. Used to go to the gym regularly but can't go due to laziness and depression. Losing interest in almost everything at a rapid rate. It's all bleak and i think i might do it before this year ends. After a certain point,you actually lose confidence in your own decisions. Because the skeptical society asks too many why's ?. And people like me buy it and under pressure we don't take any risks. Maybe i missed alot of opportunities and lost a lot of time. | suicide |
What would you consider suicidal thoughts?For about the past few months Ive been having these thoughts but Im not too sure if theyre actually suicidal. Ive been taught that suicidal thoughts are when you want to commit suicide and all. My thoughts are more of what Id do if I decided to do it. I have a plan but I dont think Ill use it any time soon. I constantly think of how things could turn out. Who would find me, how people would react, what would happen if I lived, How my relationships with other people would turn out due to that etc.. Are these still suicidal thoughts? | suicide |
I don't understand what is wrong with me.I don't know why I want to die, but it's all I can think about. I wouldn't say I have a bad life, but I don't see a prosperous future ahead of me and every day is incredibly draining. I started seeing a counselor a few weeks ago, and we are just passing the introductory sessions and now digging into meat of the discussion. I can express my self-diagnosed anxiety and depression-like symptoms logically, and can acknowledge that they are not healthy, yet a day later I am right back into my pit of longing for death. I honestly can't remember most of last semester. It's a blur of dread, exhaustion, and begging for death. I can't look my reflection in the eye because I am ashamed of who I am. I want nothing more than to not wake up, but I am too afraid to actually kill myself, for now. I'm not even sure what I am looking for by posting this. I just feel lost and desperate right now, and I guess I just needed to articulate it. | suicide |
I'm just not sure anymoreFirst and foremost: I'm from Brazil, so don't judge me. Second of all: I never went to a doctor to see if I really have some form of depression (I think I do, but... Whatever) so I'm not sure but... I just don't care anymore, you know? I have this thing that somedays, the only thing that makes me avoid suicide is fear for whats coming next (Thank you anxiety, very cool) and that scares me. Recently I started some "studies" (I just started reading random shit) on Nihilism and I definily agree with the argument that life has no meaning. I feel like that since I was . I'm now and sometimes is so fucking hard just to cope with people around me. I have to constantly hide what I really feel, sometimes using the "dark thoughs" in my mind to make jokes, since people just don't believe me. I think that they will believe when I die. It's AM here and I can't sleep. This will be the worst year in my life and I honestly don't know if I'll make it. P.S: Don't talk about my family, I hate them and they do not care. I'm just the guy they are taking care of, so they can put all of the unfinished dreams they have on me and use me as a trophy. I hate both of my parentes almost as I hate myself. | suicide |
A girl from my school just posted a video of her smoking on her snapchat. I was never friends with her, but I just sat there rewatching the video thinking, "How fucking stupid are you?" I think she was smoking weed :/ | non-suicide |
i sometimes think people not only have seen my dumb comments around reddit, but theres some people who have seen me several times and they wont remember, WEIRD im sorry u ever had an interaction with me | non-suicide |
How do I know if the girl I'm talking to is just using me to feel validated I'm starting to think this is the case and it hurts, man. You guys got any experience with this sort of thing? | non-suicide |
mom might have lung canceri have a gun if the biopsy comes back positive i'm probably going to do something stupid | suicide |
i feel like just giving up and making space for another human...i'm dizzy, i have no purpose i have no job. i'm sick of living. my mother in-law is right. i'm a lazy person. i'm a fucking waste of time. | suicide |
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I forgot it was my cak day days ago, and I couldn't be a whore, so I'm doing it now. Please help me. I'll give you free Punjabi movie no virus | non-suicide |
Hello everyone! I just postes my first original on soundcloud. Its scary af, but if you wanted to give it a listen it would really make my day! Critism is humbly welcomed:) [Envelope by me]( | non-suicide |
Probably the wrong subreddit, but oh well.My dad just walked in on me pulling up my pants after my boyfriend and I were making out and it was getting a little heated up. No sex was involved and it wasn't going to happen. The only way out I see is killing myself, but I know that's a retarded solution. I can't cope with it though. | suicide |
Will a companion help me?I've been thinking lately about getting an animal to care for; I would like a chubby cat, since I'm still living with family. I think this will help me, make me understand the world more, help me understand emotions and just cuddling with something seems... calming. Perhaps I'm just extremely lonely, I am so it would make complete sense but I normally don't let such feelings impact me. Since a cat won't judge me for my looks, voice, or body, I thought that it would be great. I do have four other cats but they are exactly mine. I want to have a cat that is mine, no one else's. | suicide |
Dad took my art stuff I am failing a class and he took all my books, drawings, papers, you name it. Only source of creativity I have is writing and that's driving me insane. I don't know when I'll be getting them back but dear lord if I have to sneak into their room to draw, I will do so. | non-suicide |
BathHow long does it take to die from drowning in the bath? Or what could happen any brain damage or? | suicide |
I figured out how to get friends and possibly an SO! Stop giving a shit about what other people do. If someone likes to play Fortnite or some other game that you find cringe it doesnt matter because thats your opinion. Or if someone likes a social media app like TikTok it doesnt matter because it is their opinion. Just like how you have an opinion so do other people. Everyones opinion should be treated equally and with respect. People should be able to have a conversation no matter opinion whether thats games, social media, or political. | non-suicide |
Losing hope...Giving up...It has been eight years since I started having suicidal thoughts. In that time I have been to six therapists, two psychiatrists, and been on over half a dozen SSRI's and other mood altering drugs. I am currently paying for college myself so dipping into my savings to pay for appointments and medication that haven't been helpful is causing extra financial stress in my life.How can I keep asking for help if I seriously believe it will work. I feel as though I am incapable of imagining a reality where I don't hate myself. I'm very lost and I'm not sure how much longer I want to wander around running into things. I just want these thoughts to end, I just want it all to stop. | suicide |
Please make it stop I keep having voices in my head and I dont know how to stop it | non-suicide |
holup i could just leave and not come back until am. like the door is right there. whats stopping me? anyways that was a nice thought. i know i would get the shit beat of me | non-suicide |
Day of random questions What do you wish you understood better? | non-suicide |
My best friend told me about his suicidal thoughts, and i forced him to tell someone.My best friend told me about his suicidal thoughts that he has. A couple months passed and I couldnt take the stress anymore, I was the only one that knew about it and I was seriously worried for him. I told him to either tell his parents or a professional or im going to do it for him. He ended up telling his father, and now hes going to get proper treatment, but now he wont talk to me, and if he does its very dry conversation. He also said that he has lost all trust in me. Im I in the wrong here? Were both I just couldnt deal with the stress of having someones life in my hands. | suicide |
i got asked out **Today i got a message from a girl asking me out , after getting pumped up and saying yes , she replied with a ss that its a challenge , so i instead of getting embarrassed , i asked her out and she actually said yes , shoot your shot guys** | non-suicide |
Heres one for yall | non-suicide |
Hi can you guys give me some encouragement? Im going to work part time at my Moms restaurant with my sister, but theres going to be a bunch of older guys. Im and theyre in their late s. I have anxiety and lately Ive been getting really nervous in social settings or around older men in general. I know that sounds weird, but Im really irrationally scared that Im going to screw up or have a panic attack. | non-suicide |
I've seen some people posting their girlfriend requirements, so here are my requirements \-Exist (optional) \-Be a female (optional) \-Please I beg you, the dark is consuming my life plz | non-suicide |
I did some excercise!!!! I am motivated ngl. I cant wait to get into shape i know its not gonna be overnight but im happy right now! | non-suicide |
I just experienced disbelief When I opened my google chrome, all my tabs where GONE!!! All of my tabs!! Or was it tabs Either way I can't believe I've lost so many tabs, I know some of you have probably more but damn, it feels bad | non-suicide |
does anyone know any sad songs i can cry myself to sleep to? my playlist is getting kinda old have to freshen it up | non-suicide |
Good morning everyone! This is my first post on the sub, so I just wanted to say hi... :) have a nice day! | non-suicide |
Want to join a discord, were all reeling? A pivotal starting member just left so that's not good But what is good is that you are considering joining via reading this post Respond to this post amd I'll send ya the link. | non-suicide |
testimony of broken promisesmy life is a testimony of broken promises.i really need to vent out my frustration ,anger and sorrow. i spent most part of my life weeping . i have always felt lonely . i attempted suicide a couple of times but unfortunately failed. to be frank i have got friends, but they have never tried to understand me . there is this bloody group of people who gave me dreams , expectations : only to take it away from me. everyone toyed around with my mind, twisted it and now finally i have lost hope in all humanity. the only thing that i call my own are the scars on my wrist, reminding me of the cruelty in this world. none gives a shit about whether i die or not . i have always been alone . i have wished for someone to understand me , to save me from the emotional torture that my mind was setting up for me. but everyone turned their faces away from me. all i wanted was someone to tell me that my life matters, but no. and here i am now, putting on a fake face for everyone , smiling on the outside but crumbling inside. i know my life is extremely short and i am contemplating suicide. i have tried being happy but it didn't work. now i have lost it . i am becoming a psychopath with each passing day. has anyone loved me sincerely? i don't think so. i hate my body , i hate my life, i hate everything about me. do u know what i fear the most ?my mind. it is unstable .all i wanted was someone to love me sincerely. but i didn't get it. its fine. i do not know why i live. my mind is dead and is ready to kill me any time . so here i am - a dead girl with no desire to live and a dead mind. | suicide |
Hey I'm Irish Wanna be friends? Irish people are pretty cool. | non-suicide |
Can you help me. I was playing among us in a public and got disconnected, im looking for DoctorWho, you were black, my name was Assbean, and I was white. Can you help me find him. | non-suicide |
I feel like I'll never put my life together againI was sexually assaulted at my old school. At first, I hid it. But as I opened up eventually, I got a lot of negativity that made me feel I'd done something wrong or wasn't handling it appropriately. It became really hard to get out of bed and eventually my life was just ashes. My home life is not supportive in terms of family and friends just can't be there. I feel like I'm getting further and further away from the life I once wanted and there's no way back. I once had a promising future and it's just gone and I like don't want to be here anymore. I don't really have many friends anyway. My personality is unique at best. I feel like the world would be a better place if I wasn't in it. I think my parents would be happier. | suicide |
I was in a car accidentI had a car accident days ago. A drunk driver hit my car from behind. I swerved across the road and into the woods. I didn't hit a tree, there were no oncoming cars in that second. Change any minor detail and I'd be dead. For some people that's the moment that inspires them to turn their life around and appreciate being alive. For me it did the exact opposite. I don't feel lucky at all. I don't even have anyone to tell about this. When I told work I'm not coming in they told me to get a doctor's note and hung up. Now, when driving I daydream about driving straight into the trees next to the road. I'm living life on autopilot even more than before. This is just so depressing idk | suicide |
So uhhh... I had a dream.... I had a dream that i was going around on a rampage killing everything i layed eyes on. It started of as me going hunting for deer. I ended up accidentally shooting a person. In order to hide the body i ate it. All of it. Then i had a sudden lust for blood. After that i went home and killed my wife and child. I then consumed them. I decided to clean myself up and go for a walk, so i did. I took a shower then i went for a walk. I saw a fairly small group of teens so i decided to go after them. Just as i took one down i noticed one was calling the cops. I ran after her but couldn't catch her. It was like one of those neverending hallways. It just kept getting longer and longer, untill i could see her no more.i went back to the others and had a feast. Luckily it was decently close to a forest i could drag the corpses into. I decoded to start going for smaller children as they cant run fast. So as the days went on, more and more people started to go 'missing'. The cops ignored it at first, but when i took the chiefs child they were on high alert. I hadn't eaten the child yet, for i was planning something. I told them where to find me. They got there in a few minutes. I had his child in my arms and his child was screaming frantically. It was then, that I went too far. I stared him in the eyes as i snapped the head of his kid right in front of him. They were quick to react. Almost as soon as you could hear the wet, cold sound of a neck snapping, the gunfire began. I ended up getting shot in my left shoulder and my right thigh. I had to retreat otherwise id die. So i ran. i didnt make it far. They caught up to me and they took me to the town center to have me tortured. I was to be cut apart as slowly as possible. That was my wildest dream ive ever had. | non-suicide |
Tips on how to flirt online thru text? So with this pandemic goin around its kinda hard to flirt with the girl I like while wearing a mask and meters away from them. So another way to get to know them better and flirt is through texting but idk how to start conversations with people out of the blue through text without making it seem like I have a crush on them or want them to be closer to me | non-suicide |
I get a snow day tomorrow! I still have to do zoom :( | non-suicide |
How long do your parents let you play video games? Mine let me play for hours max a day. On school nights, usually around -. hour. | non-suicide |
ThoughtsIn days its my birthday and Ill be meeting my mom in Nashville for the weekend. Upon returning home I want to hike up a mountainside and jump off. Not sure if Ill wait out my three year olds birthday in a month or not. Fuck derealization and fuck bipolar disorder. | suicide |
I don't feel wellI feel like being nothing, to stop existing right now would be great. Anything to stop feeling sad, useless, worthless, dumb, like I am a bother to others. Just wanted to say that. | suicide |
My second laptop I had a crappy laptop for a couple years and a couple years ago it broke it was never really good for anything. Couldn't really play games on it. I have saved money and my mom is gonna help me get a gaming laptop tomorrow, very excited. I think the first games I will get are minecraft, and maybe phasmophobia. Any suggestions for games? | non-suicide |
days lefti have a limited time left.. i cant even leave home.. you should feel safe at home but i dont. its like a hell for me... today my friends called me crying that theyre worried about me. you dont know how hard it was to pretend. i just dont want them to get hurt. should i just leave earlier? | suicide |
Is it easier for a girl to get a guy Than a boy to get a girl?, because that's how it looks to me | non-suicide |
Among Us anyone? Code below **XULGOF** North America servers | non-suicide |
Is this considered an invasion of privacy? So my dad recently got me (F) and my brother (M) a phone, but they said that we had to tell them our passcode, so we did. But lately I've noticed that my phone goes missing at around am-am. My brothers phone has been gone as well. As it turns out, my dad was taking them from us to read our messages, and to check our social media. He'd accidentally let it slip. Like most people, I have quite a few things I keep secret from my dad (sexuality, opinions, religion, etc). I trust him a LOT, and I feel like they should know some things that are going on in my life, but I think that this crosses the line. Is this pushing the boundaries, or am I just overreacting? | non-suicide |
Ok Reddit, youve finally broken me.... I was going through the comments on a Makemesuffer post and someone said, OH GOD, WHERES THE EYE BLEACH? And this WONDERFUL (complete opposite) person replied R/ Eyeblech and I ignored the NSFW tag like an idiot cause I was expecting puppies and kittens.... BUT NO, I find multiple pictures of people hanging them selves and a cartel group cutting open a guy, and a dude getting his arm chopped off.... but what finally sent me was a picture of how much blood came from a miscarriage and also the halfway formed body of the baby, and to say the least... I wont be sleeping tonight... so to that one guy that replied with that horrid subreddit, screw you. | non-suicide |
What's that little thing in your day/life that makes you happy? for me, its you people | non-suicide |
hello internet strangersim kinda tired of living. i keep having bad day after bad day and with winter approaching, my sad will get worse. im not on antidepressants or anything and ive never seeked mental help before and i kinda dont want to due to the stigma. my gf brokeup with me, its my shittiest year in college academically, its hard to make new friends, and no one wants to fucking hire me. ill keep trying but i dont know for how long. the only thing keeping me going is the thought that one day i will be happier but i dont know how long i am going to stay down. thanks for reading :) | suicide |
Good morning Hope you have a good day and your teachers dont give you homework! :) | non-suicide |
Why do I have to continue to exist.My first post here. I'm sure I'll fuck it up. It's kind of how I roll. Just shy of years ago I tried to kill myself but backed out at the last minute. Checked myself into rehab, on the Chicago north shore. Typed out other shit but deleted it. Suffice to say beautiful rich women I was in with were fawned over and flourished. I just wish I were dead. I hate myself for not pushing through with the suicide. My marriage ended, my daughter hates me, and my one relationship after has been a shit show. I guess I look good "for my age" whatever that means. I'm still alone except kitten, half drunk, listening to creepy pasta stories on YouTube and posting here. I hope next time I push through. seconds of strength and this post wouldn't exist. | suicide |
Yeaaa some people asked me street directions and I helped them out :D I feel so good. Last time somebody asked me street directions I panicked and I answered in english even though he asked in Italian lol | non-suicide |
I really don't want to live anymore. I've given up.I think about suicide every day. I don't have any plans to do it, but I really wouldn't mind just dropping dead right now. My life is a meaningless, empty void and I have absolutely nothing to show for it. My anxiety is almost debilitating, and it feels as though nobody truly loves me. I really want to stop living. I want this pain to end. | suicide |
Daily Dose of Shower Thoughts Relationships are just when both people are simping for each other | non-suicide |
How can I make my anxious/depressed cousin feel loved & welcomed at my house? Every year my(F) cousin(F) comes to stay with my husband(M), myself, and our daughter(F). Ive been closely involved in her life since she was born. We share a close bond, and I suppose most would compare me to the cool aunt memes (even though Im not her aunt). She deals with anxiety & depression, and takes meds nightly for it. This trip is a bit different because my parents are staying with us (F, M) for a few days overlapping with my cousins stay. I can tell that my sweet cousin is INCREDIBLY uncomfortable. She has been staying in her room (yes, she has a room at our house) for % of her day visit so far. She is not talking much to anyone, even when we try to make generic conversation with her (hows school/work/hobbies/etc?). Shes blatantly ignoring people talking to her. When she does come out of her room, she stays on Snapchat/IG/TikTok/Netflix. How can I support her? Ive asked her and she insists she is fine (while crying). Ive offered hugs, leaving her alone.. Ive invited her to do the things we are doing (going for walks with the baby + dog, trips to the store/outdoor shopping/etc). I can tell shes very uncomfortable with the extra company (she was warned of before coming), and feel so bad. | non-suicide |
I have to use bitmoji for a class assignment What the fuck is this school, the computer teacher thats like years old is making use do this | non-suicide |
tfw the most expensive thing per weight is the stem resin of a flower humans are weird | non-suicide |
I INVITED A GIRL TO PLAY GAMES WITH ME!!!! she went offline as soon as she saw my invite. | non-suicide |
I didnt memorize the multiplication tables I have a calculator, and my cock is fat | non-suicide |
I just finished listening to an audio book for school. It was hours of torture, and it triggered some thoughts i would i would never have. Anyways goodnight Context: sitting down and listening to something for hours straight caused an existential crisis. I contemplated life and considered suicide. Now Im tired and Im going to bed | non-suicide |
I know you won't believe, but crash just said yes!!! I asked him if It's about time is a good game, and he replied "well I don't wanna be selfish, but yeah". | non-suicide |
me when my brother slaps me and hits me on my birthday he also told me to kms and called me a whore and shit like that | non-suicide |
what is the point in existing if its filled with never ending pain and monotony?i keep getting involved with people who do not care about me whatsoever. in addition to the constant heartbreak, my days are so boring and i dont have anything to look forward to. seriously, absolutely nothing in life excites me. instead, i dread each day that is to come. the monotony is overwhelming. i seriously do not see a point in living if my existence is filled with sadness. for as long as i have been alive, i have been utterly depressed. i cannot think of a single week long span where i have been consistently happy. i hope i can actually get the strength to kill myself either this month or the next. what is the point in existing if its just filled with infinite pain? the years to come will certainly be worse as my youth is slipping away. | suicide |
It's like I don't even want to get better..Well that's it, I'm booked to see a therapist tomorrow. After years of self harm and constant self loathing with suicidal thoughts thrown in the mix, My mum has convinced me to go and meet a person. Bear in mind my mum doesn't even know about the self harm or suicidal thoughts, So it must be pretty bad from her perspective not knowing about those. I have no idea what it's gonna be like and I'm not looking forward to it at all, I'll just end up getting really anxious and wont know what to say. It's always been something I've tried to avoid, It's why I stay at home and play computer games all day and have never even kissed a girl, It's not that I don't enjoy playing games, I just absolutely hate the constant feeling of judgement when I step out the door. I feel like any wrong move I make, if I slip on the pavement and trip, that everyone is watching and laughing. A friend even offered to organize it and me go with him a few months back, But I just ended up telling him that it wasn't a big deal and lied to make it sound not as bad as it really is. I guess the therapist can help in some way, I have no clue how this kinda thing works. I guess I'm just posting here again to kinda see if anyone can give me an honest opinion of what therapy is/was like for them. Thanks. | suicide |
Fuck youI hate you if you have anyone that likes you, this post is probably gonna be removed because "bad words" but I fucking hate all you anyway so Fuck you This is a really desperate to reach out about help but don't know what the fuck else to do and if you don't like it I would like to punch you in your dumbass face | suicide |
I really like the Greeks explanation of dreams They say it's a way to predict the future If that is true then imma have a fun time at school ;) | non-suicide |
I just made this meal from an idea and its really good - Get chicken nuggets and put them in the microwave -when there is second left can some cheese and put a piece so it goes from top to bottom, basically a small strip of cheese - microwave for the rest of the seconds so the cheese melts - Get some ketchup and make a line going across the cheese - lightly salt the ketchup - Eat it cuz its really good | non-suicide |
saying random song lyrics until ends day "my name's blurry face and i care what you think." | non-suicide |
Whats the point?What is the point of continuing to survive if you dont see life going anywhere. I had ideas for the future, but they no longer seem reachable. And by reachable I mean like theres no way Ill live that long to achieve them. Just in my mind their all blurry, because I know inside that I wont last that long. I have no more motivation from anyone or anything. Life is just a burden, and Im just waiting for an accident to happen. My mental state is going crazy, Im too young to get help, but my parents dont care. I had a therapist, but I realized that they are not what I need. Im too much of a cowardly introvert to seek help without the knowledge of my parents. It seems like this is it for me, because life has just stopped. I have now gotten memory loss so I dont remember anything from my past. And a wall in my brain prevents me from imagining my future. Im just stuck in a limbo. What is the point? | suicide |
The pain never endsIt's been years since this sadness in me has started. I end every day by laying in bed alone thinking how lonely I am and how pointless my life is. It's a never ending pain that I just want to stop. I dont think it will go away ever.. crying dulls the pain but I cant even have that. I try to get the tears out but nothing will come. All these sleepless nights get so lonely. Having no one to talk to is torture. Music doesnt help any more. Self harm is getting harder to hide. I'm alone. These scars on my body just remind me.. I'm stuck. not a day goes by without suicide on my mind. I'm to chicken to do it but I like to think that one day I'll do it. One day I'll be gone and leave this pain behind. One day... I wont be in pain anymore.. "shorty dont know I'm broken inside wanna be six feet under fuck being alive"-Bad Dream. | suicide |
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