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Life is boring.Posting this from a throwaway I made just now. I'm not suicidal right now, but I feel like I'm heading down that path. I'm intelligent (four sets of top grades in my exams), I'm fit (since I started going to the gym several months ago), and I'm emotionally and mentally strong as far as I can tell. But life is boring. I'm not a virgin and I've been in a few relationships, but they never work out and I feel lonely again, and I don't want to try more because the feeling of a girl leaving twists me up inside. So after the last time that happened, I decided to get fitter and go alone for a while, so I started going to the gym. It was fun, but now I've lost motivation and my exams are just a few weeks away. Then what? I will probably do well in them, and I'll go to University. Then I'll find a job and live a boring life until I die. Where is the interest? Where is the adventure I wanted since I was a kid, of going to new places and changing the world? That won't happen. Every day it gets a little bit harder. If I had someone to be with, I would find it easier. But most of the people I've met are assholes. Not in the jock sense, but in that they're just mindlessly selfish without realizing it. I've come to the conclusion that I just don't fit in with the kind of people I try to associate with, and I realize that I don't like them anyway. I know this post is a mess. My days are just gym, studying, going home, repeat. I want to be in love again, I want to go out with people I like to do things. I have one friend who I think is a genuine friend, but he's got his own life to lead and I hate to intrude on other peoples' shit. I've always been a strong believer in the idea that everyone is for themselves, and we have to use our inner strengths to propel us through life. But my battery's almost run out and I don't want to continue anymore. I find no passion or joy for anything, just mindless hours of maths and Netflix and flash games. Why should I bother continuing? Life is boring. It's not worth it. | suicide |
Is snapchat ok? My class wanted to me download snapchat and join their group. Is it ok for a redditor to use it or is it just some normie shit? | non-suicide |
I shall turn ur profile picture into the polish flag. Why? Because I can. DM me if ur interested. | non-suicide |
Redditor in depression subreddit needs help.[Someone in the depression subreddit seems like they need help]( pretty badly. I can't provide any more help now, because I already took a sleeping pill and am going to be asleep in a few minutes. Can some night owl who is more awake than me try and talk to this guy? I read his post history and I think he's pretty serious about making an attempt tonight, and pretty desperate to be helped. (I hope it's OK to post like this, I haven't been involved in suicide prevention online for a few years or on reddit ever and don't know the etiquette here.) | suicide |
It's so cold I'm a person who can take cold weather pretty good. and mostly don't feel it after a bit but shit it's cold. Aight nothing else really school sucks. stay safe love you all bye. | non-suicide |
Can somebody just talk to me please Haven't talked to a human being in a long time. Please someone talk to me | suicide |
Guys I need help How do I turn of motion blur on my eyes I can't find the setting | non-suicide |
I lost. So my best friend got a gf that was something that Bo one expected but yeah good. But he changed, he was always silent and never gave you a chance after you f***ed something up one chance that all you get. But after he got a gf he wasn't like that. From war machine to hipi and that's no good. Tho we're we like to play fight. We often go to woods and fight with sticks till someone starts to bleed that the other wins(cool game we like it). But after he got a gf he basically got so bad it's boring. We could exchange attack and block them for like - mins, but now he is just standing ther wanting to lose cos his gf is against this game. Today I lost my favourite game and my friend. I said to him that he changed, He doesn't believe. So now I'm just hanging out with him like this: Wanna fight No Why Cos Cos why Cos my gf doesn't approve And I like her So what do you want to do... * mins in silence* Wanna grab something to dring and go to the *** (name of our favourite spot to sit and watch the city but it has the name in different language). We go ther and that's it. | non-suicide |
I have so much homework And I'm going through an identity crisis. Damn feel like shit at the moment | non-suicide |
Suicide notesDo others write suicide notes in advance? I wrote one two years ago and always carry it in my wallet. Its always in the back of my head. | suicide |
I am so happy right now!! I bought pokemon lets go pikachu yesterday and I have already caught a wild bulbasaur, wild squirtle and wild charmander. I am so happy, I also caught an onix for in my party. | non-suicide |
Do you use Dark Mode Or Light Mode on your phone? I use Light Mode all the time....Using dark mode is kinda weird for me... | non-suicide |
I wanna meet some teenagers (Reposted cause im stupid lol) Hello random person, Im just a yo dude who really wants to learn japanese but Id especially like to make some jp friends to hang out, chill and play games with. You dont need to be good at English, thats part of the experience! (Though if youre reading this you probably do speak English) I also want to make clear that i dont want you to teach me the language unless you REALLY want to (in which case i would probably teach you french if you want or something idk). I just want someone around my age to do stuff with and experience the language and cool people around it! Thank you! PS: if this isnt a good place to post this please redirect me. Also (as you may have guessed) im bilingual in french and can communicate in German if you want :) | non-suicide |
What if we dated Full homo Jk Unless? | non-suicide |
Eid Mubarak yall If you dont know what eid is, look it up on google. | non-suicide |
Just... Ugh....My mental health is so bad.... Id be willing to drink myself unalive on stream cause fuck it. And its like... no one fucking cares about me anyway.... I mean there's a slim to none chance I'll ever be able to move out of this abusive household... maybe I'll be happy dead. | suicide |
I'm killing myself on the th of maySo I've been thinking about this for a long time. I don't want to be alive anymore. It seems like nobody cares about me. The only reason I'm not dead yet is because I don't want to hurt my dad. But this is not about him this is about me. So thats why i decided I'd give myself more days to finish everything up and prepare myself. | suicide |
Change My LifeHi. I am years old. I have been contemplating suicide for a really long time. For many, many years. I want to end my life. But I don't necessarily want to kill myself. I don't really want an advice. I don't want people to tell me that life has a lot to offer. I already know that. What I need is someone to change my life. I don't have the strength, or the motivation, or the money to do it. So, as a last resort before killing myself I guess, I am asking you. Do something to change my life. Marry me, adopt me, give me a job, give me a place, anything. I need someone to change my life. This is the first and the last time that I am publicly accepting that I am this weak. Please do something. | suicide |
Hey it's me living a very destructive life style Like I may probably die at the end of the school year I never sleep I have inconsistent eating I never exercise I'm always stressed and procrastinating But do I care no Becuase I have little self regard | non-suicide |
Im worthlessI was gonna kill myself last weekend but Im too much of a fucking coward. I just want a ticket out of this place. I Mhm too scared to kill myself just to find out I survived and be even more miserable the rest of my life. I hate it. I hate everything. I want to give up but Im too much of a coward. I hate myself so much. | suicide |
Does anyone have so hugs left? Stupid me Luxembourg city on my own because i wanted to see more of europe (im ) and i made a school project out of it so i could go. I booked a hostel and hoped that i would meet people from my age and get new friends. But instead of having fun, im just sitting alone in my room feeling bad about everything. I could really use some hugs right now.... | non-suicide |
Two Beers Larry came into my bar Every day to drink two beers. "My brothers dying; ones for him," He said, his eyes full of tears. Each day it was the same, Two beers and then hed go, One for his brother, one for him, Hes sad but sweet, this schmo. One day he orders just one. His brothers dead, Im thinking. I asked him, but he replied, "No, its me; Ive given up drinking." *By Joanna Fuchs* | non-suicide |
I need helpIve been seeing therapist and a phyciatrist. Im takin anti-d. But i still feel like ass. And im really suicidal rn | suicide |
Might sound stupid butAnyone got any good songs? I can't be alone with my thoughts right now and none of my music is doing it for me, I just need to drown it all out. Tomorrow's gunna be a rough day and just something to blare in my ears so I don't have to think about it would be nice | suicide |
The only reason why i wouldnt end my own lifeThe only reason why i wouldnt end my own life is because of my mom. A lot of the times when we hear news about the death of people my age, my mom would exclaim that she cant fathom the amount of suffering their parents have to endure. I dont want my mom to go through this. But at times i just cant stand anything and would often wonder what it would be like if i werent around, what it would be like to end the immense loneliness and emptiness i feel everyday. Despite the fact that i have friends, i just cant control the negative thoughts that go through my head that always interpret anything as being bad | suicide |
Why are all the dudes on omegle assholes? Like everyone who had a conversation with me a a chick | non-suicide |
I'm regretting life decisions So I've always been kinda chill when it came to schoolwork and stuff because I've never wanted a job that required good grades, like a doctor or engineer or whatever. This meant that I had no plans to go to university and didn't really do as well in my exams as I could have (I say as I could have because I actually did really well when I was younger and slacked off later on). I spent more time worrying about my social life. I finished high school in and went to college to get an HNC in Music, which I've now got. But I didn't plan anything for when I finished, I just thought I'd get a job and move out. But Covid happened and now I'm pretty much fucked. I'm and have no chance of getting a job. I wasn't ready to leave high school when I did. I've pretty much realised that uni is a stepping stone towards independent life. But instead I'm stuck living at my mum's house on benefits that I don't want to be on. I'd apply for uni next year but I don't know what I'd do, where I'd go, and I wouldn't get in anyhow because I don't have the grades. It sucks. Kinda crying right now because I literally have nothing to do with my life. I always expected I'd be dead by like anyways but I got therapy that helped me understand that I won't be so now I know that I really should have tried harder in school | non-suicide |
Am I the only one who still cant tie their shoe laces the traditional way? I turn this year and I still use the bunny ear method to tie my shoes | non-suicide |
its timeive been reading this forum for the past few days. ive been having these feelings for years but more intensely the last months. i have no job, no money, no family, no friends no potential and no reason to live. i have totally given up. i dont care if my actions hurt anyone else. i actually love knowing that my actions will hurt people. ive tried to do this with pills and alcohol for a while now but now i am going to just hang myself. i am not legally able to purchase a gun or else id already be gone. as soon as i am in this house alone i will be taking this noose, putting it around my neck and leaving this world for good. please mark my grave unknown | suicide |
Its my birthday, time to change my flair I am now , year older than I was last year, days older the. I was last year, weeks older than I was last year, , minutes older than I was last year. | non-suicide |
There doesn't seem to be any other option left other than suicideI have been dealing with depression and OCD since my teenage years. Through the years I have taken SSRI, SNRI, NDRI, Tricyclics, and ECTs. None have worked. From what it looks like, my situation will only get worse. Like year ago, I could not imagine that I would be in such a terrible place that I am now, or that I could feel so shitty, and I had already tried to end my life times back then. It's like, the sadness in my chest is exploding, I can't contain it anymore. I have to wrestle with the idea of suicide every morning that I wake up and every night that I go to bed. More than a decade of dealing with 'mental health professionals' has resulted in nothing but disappointment. I had to quit my last jobs in the last years. About months ago, I had to completely give up on working since it's impossible to deal with sadness while working, hell it's impossible to get out o bed. Dealing with friends and family also has always made things worse. Whenever I show a sign of depression they can't help themselves but to call me a loser or spout something to the effect of "why are you like this, what the fuck is wrong with you". Through the last decade I have tried everything that my idiot friend have suggested: yoga, psychedelics, working out, hiking, traveling, etc.. through all of them I feel incredibly bored, stupid, disappointed and sad. There doesn't seem to be any option left other than suicide. I just want this sadness and disappointment to end, I don't think I can take any more of this. | suicide |
Being smart isnt a blessing Its a fucking curse. One second youre taking an IQ test and the next youre in mostly AP classes for your sophomore year of high school. This shit sucks! I miss my free time where Id yall to people and help them. Now I cant do that. I have so much homework, that when Im done with it, ITS TIME FOR ME TO GO TO SCHOOL *AND GET MORE HOMEWORK*. I fucking hate this. I want to quit school. This isnt beneficial. It just makes me depressed. Wtf is wrong with the education system? | non-suicide |
My own mother makes me want to kill myselfAnd I'm going to do it soon. I can't even begin to explain how fucked up my life and living situation is. It's sad because I really don't want to die, but this is the only way the pain will end. I've tried again and again to escape from her controlling grip but it doesn't work. I'm broke, without a working car, I've been trapped in this hell for too long. I'm hurting mentally and physically but I can't do shit about it. I'm scared to die to be honest but the peace that will come after will be totally worth it. Anyways, this is just a goodbye post. I tried. | suicide |
My th birthday is tomorrow. The truth is, I'm not ready to drive yet. | non-suicide |
Me and my friends made a cult in minecraft Here is the video link - | non-suicide |
its my birthday >:D today ive turned , which means i finally get to change my user flair | non-suicide |
My libido is goneThis might be a stupid reason for being suicidal but my libido was preventing me from committing suicide and it made me feel "normal". I have chronic health issues but I was never too worried because at least I had a high libido. Then a few weeks ago after taking antibiotics for a bad sinus infection my libido DIED. It's totally gone. There is no feeling down there and it feels like I have to pee all the time. I'm going to the obgyn next week but she'll probably say there's nothing wrong, just like they all do. Fuck my health. I haven't exercised properly in years. My low libido. Stupid fucking healthy people without a care in the world. FUCK. YOU. I HATE THIS FUCKING LIFE. I HAVE TRIED SO HARD AND FOR WHAT? NOTHING. FUCK FEELING THIS WAY AND FUCK THE WORLD. WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER FOR THE SAKE OF OTHERS. WHY DO OTHER PEOPLE GET TO BE HEALTHY BUT I DON'T. I ALWAYS HAVE TO TRY X HARDER THAN MOST FUCKING PEOPLE JUST TO FUNCTION | suicide |
i thought i was getting betteri attempted back in may. its important to note because up until that point, i was getting better. i was almost a year clean from self harm and didnt count calories either. i was doing so fucking good. and i just slipped up. and now, six months later, i cant even get out of bed. (important note: im enrolled in online highschool) i try and sleep until at least two in the afternoon so that i dont have to get up and look at my shitty trailer or look through my empty fridge or clean up my familys mess. if im asleep, i dont have to deal with the fact that my future isnt fucking happening. im so alone all the time and not to sound emo but no one fucking understands. my mom is always leaving, and my dad is a druggie. my brothers are so dependent that they make me feel like shit because i cant even take care of myself. i cant talk to any of my friends because i dont have the fucking energy. my best friend and the one person i can talk to is my girlfriend. she struggles with a lot of the same shit too though and i dont want to make her feel hopeless or shitty. i try to be as there for her as i can but i dont know what to say to her when shes like, i wanna die! or i wanna cut! like fuck bitch me too. not to mention?? i always say mean shit to her when we fight and its awful. i feel so guilty. i cant get a job either. does no one want to hire me or am i just too much of a anxious piece of shit to get a job? the question will always remain. i dont even know what im living for anymore. i dont know why i didnt die back in may. | suicide |
I really shouldn't fucking post this it's honest emotion but Idk guess I am Fuck my life ruin it it's already bad enough  give me more reasons to end it  please  I need to go but I need more motivation to leave them I needed them  now I need to go now I can't be here anymore  just abandon me so I don't need to be here anymore so instead I can be free fucking end me yourself or let me go  just don't make me stay here just to make you happy  don't be as selfish as me the only one allowed double standards is me  so fucking let mego don't be as selfish as me don't become a piece of shit like me  let me go just let me fucking go so I don't have to hurt you  this doesn't need to be here so I don't know why it is but anyway | non-suicide |
Im going to sleep now I probably got a concussion, I made huge strides with a girl, I destroyed everyone in PE, and i completed a lot of work. Today was a good day. Goodnight | non-suicide |
Wouldn't Never Gonna Give You Up be the best theme song for an Apple commercial? Imagine a new phone with new features being showcased in a commercial wile this is going on in the background!! (Entrance) Screen turns on and the rick Astley video is there A woman or boy, , , years old picks it up and starts showing of the features At the same time we see a montage in the background, a couple getting divorced and re married in the back round at the same time you hear: (Pleas elaborate on more detail in the comment below) We're no strangers to love You know the rules and so do I A full commitment's what I'm thinking of You wouldn't get this from any other guy I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling Gotta make you understand Never gonna give you up Never gonna let you down Never gonna run around and desert you Never gonna make you cry Never gonna say goodbye Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you We've known each other for so long Your heart's been aching but you're too shy to say it Inside we both know what's been going on We know the game and we're gonna play it And if you ask me how I'm feeling Don't tell me you're too blind to see Never gonna give you up Never gonna let you down Never gonna run around and desert you Never gonna make you cry Never gonna say goodbye Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you No, I'm never gonna give you up No, I'm never gonna let you down No, I'll never run around and hurt you Never, ever desert you We've known each other for so long Your heart's been aching but Never gonna give you up Never gonna let you down Never gonna run around and desert you Never gonna make you cry Never gonna say goodbye Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you No, I'm never gonna give you up No, I'm never gonna let you down No, I'll never run around and hurt you I'll never, ever desert you | non-suicide |
Hey guys Im really sad Title | non-suicide |
These comments are really coming for this girl Damn theres this video of a year old girl singing and almost everyone in the comments is flaming her for wearing a crop top. Heres the video: | non-suicide |
Why is so many astronaut stuff coming out on TV this Fall? Disney has "The Right Stuff", Netflix has "Away", and Apple TV has "For All Mankind". What do they get by pushing this stuff on us? | non-suicide |
Asking How Your Day is Going Until I Get a Girlfriend or Graduate Day Update: My muscles are on fire. Also I very much want to play Codenames. | non-suicide |
I am tiredI am a senior in college. I had terrible grades in high school, and after getting very sick two years ago I turned my life around. Now I feel it was all for nothing. I feel like no one likes me. Like I just cant be non awkward enough for the world to let me in. I feel like the world is out to shit on me, but just in a slow and tortureous method to draw it out. My parents at in the 's, and paid tons of money for me to go to this shitty college. Now they work hours a day so I can graduate. I feel like shit cuz of it. At work I do the absolute best I can, been interning for a year, no job offer. all the jobs i am applying for reject me, despite my good resume. I cant do it anymore. I see now I have failed. I am alone. I want out. I am tired. I have no friends, a degree that will end up killing my parents, soon to be no job, and no love. | suicide |
MY EXAMS ARE GOING TO START, AND MY MOM AND DAD HAS GONE INTO FULL ASIAN PARENTS MODE someone please help me, i havent seen the internet world in days..... (filler cause automod sucks) | non-suicide |
I dont see the pointIm years old. On paper Im a well adjusted, smart, attractive girl. I work a well paying high stress job for a bunch of narcissists, every day I have to go in I cry. Im scared of all of my bosses, to the point of panic attacks daily. I have bills to pay and I cant quit. Ive got no support system financially. I tried to kill myself on Sunday after a conversation with my addict parents, it didnt work. Now Im on suicide watch at home with constant supervision and checkins from my therapist. I just dont care anymore, I didnt sign up to pay bills and die. Living was some kind of contract I was forced to sign, and I dont want any part of it. I dont know joy, I dont remember joy. I just want to be done. | suicide |
Goodnight reddit, ill see you tomorrow * does a backflip and runs into a wall ___________________________________ | non-suicide |
MY WORLD HISTORY TEACHER JUST TOLD US WIKIPEDIA IS A VALID SOURCE!!! He was explaining our next assignment, which is gonna be a research paper, and he says that when we start researching Wikipedia is a great source. The in text links open doors for key research and opens you up to new topics that will really help you push yours to the edges. Wikipedia should be how you start, not finish This is not like the simulations, every other teacher I have tells us to avoid it... Now I dont have to make up random citations on my works cited page because I wasnt allowed to use Wikipedia! | non-suicide |
Im just tiredI just wish I could kill myself without throwing my family into financial problems and then them having to deal with it. Im just tired and want to die in my sleep. Im sick of no one really caring about me and then me feeling bad when they say "bla bla but we care". I dont feel like anyone really cares, its always about them and their emotions and problems. then they expect me to open up but when I do, they dont understand me. Me opening up to anyone isnt helping me anymore because no one cares anyway. Im already in therapy but I dont even think my therapist cares. Im just tired. If I was dead nothing would bother me anymore. | suicide |
appreciation post u | non-suicide |
Question for people who have been to the hospital and/or committed beforeIs any company better than no company when youre there and in that state? Would you rather be left alone? Im assuming it varies between people and points in your life. I have a more specific question, but cant ask it due to privacy concerns. | suicide |
You and your Minecraft buddy mine for one hour. They find diamonds, you find . In a capitalist server, you would end up owning , and they with owning . In a communist server, you would both put them all in a chest and equally use them only when you really need them. | non-suicide |
I wanna talk about Bojack Horseman. I finally decided to watch Bojack Horseman because of all the youtube videos praising it for it's depiction of mental health issues. It is really good but now that i have finished it idk what to do with my life. Anyone else here watched it? Also would u recommend it to others? | non-suicide |
Ive been drunk for daysThis is where I lay. Not gonna lie having a hard time... cant even be honest with my therapist right now. I have nothing. I have some pills I just crushed up in my ninja blender lmfao Thinking about taking a handful to see how it feels... | suicide |
Every time I feel like taking a nap I get dragged out of the house oof | non-suicide |
The argument "Lolis don't compare to irl underage girls" is the new "Anime is not cartoons" Just something I thought of in my head | non-suicide |
anyone got websites that let you make timelines and infographics easily and without signing up for bs newsletters? a timeline is supposed to be easy to make but unfortunately many ppl who probably made their professionally designed templates if you sign up now on something no better than ms paint or sum shit want me to resign myself to being spammed by their newsletter bots | non-suicide |
y'all ever just pop your collar bone?? low key kinda weird but also satisfying in a way but also I can't do it on demand it just happens randomly | non-suicide |
How much better could it getAnyone got experince with "overcoming" suicide? I have tried to imagine a future that could be worth it but it's just not possible sleeping though every day right now in a room full of trash and smoke and I cant even afford to drink | suicide |
Im pregnant I just took a pregnancy test and it was positive i don't know what to do please help. I know its my boyfriend's. | non-suicide |
Got to listen to some people screwing while I was in the bathroom I thought it was someone just jokingly panting but then I realized no they were taking off their belt. Oh shit someone's masterbaiting. Then I saw the silhouette through the door and heard the moans. I had made sounds so they knew I was there just didn't care. They ran off into the girls bathroom when they heard keys ringing in the hallway that sounded like they might come in. I don't even know who it was. God I love highschool | non-suicide |
Ok I'm kinda getting scared now I went to Walmart to go buy a soccer ball which is in the sports section (duh) and right next to the sport section is the gun section (merica) and there was a line of around persons to buy guns. That section is always lonely but this is the first time I actually see someone buy a gun form there This was in Houston Texas by the way | non-suicide |
german people?befinden sich hier auch menschen die deutsch knnen? | suicide |
All I can feel is myself getting worse day by day, I need help but I'm unable to tell anyone about how I feelI've never been able to verbally tell people how I feel, what I'm thinking and what is making me upset cos I get too emotional, so my brain just shuts off and no matter how hard I try, I can't speak. I can't help it, it's not my fault that I can't talk, I've repressed everything for fucking years that it's become impossible for me to speak. my thoughts are getting worse, I feel so fucking hopeless about the future, I can't even picture one. I'm going to a job interview for something I don't want to so cos I need the money, I hate living. School is miserable, I have no motivation. i dont even have the energy to hurt myself anymore, I'll just lay there crying and thinking of knives and hurting myself I'm at my wits end and I don't know what to do anymore I need help | suicide |
How honest are you with your therapist?Ive been to therapy/counseling many times... but I have never been fully honest about my thoughts on suicide. I never tell them I think about dying every day multiple times a day. I never tell them I have a plan. I usually dont even admit to my past (and relapses) of self harm. I hate that I dont tell them the truth because I feel that prevents me from getting the best care... But Im too afraid to risk telling them the truth and losing my privacy... they always say they have to keep your medical information private unless there is risk you will harm yourselves and others. The thought of police showing up at my door... of being admitted and losing my career... of somehow my parents being notified (I havent spoken to them in months) Its terrifying. Way scarier than the thought of dying. What do you guys tell your providers about your suicidal thoughts? And how have they handled that information when you do? | suicide |
How do parents seem to always do things at the worst time I was on my PC until 'o clock in the morning and whilst my dad slept in the next room, and didn't wake up and check to see if I was still on until I was just about to get off. I swear it's like a fucking superpower | non-suicide |
Anyone else REALLY hate school? Like, I am willing to sacrifice a lot if that meant no school. If someone offered me a deal in which I never saw any of my friends in person again, but I had no school, I'd probably take it. I know it's kinda stereotypical for a teenage boy to despise school but I fucking ***HATE*** school. | non-suicide |
I want to kill myself because I have facial paulsyI cut my own face a year ago because i hated the way I look. I hit a nerve or muscle, and now my mobility and symmetry is fucked. People say it's not much but they talk shit. I can't live with it. My face is constantly uncomfortable and I can't smile or squint or express emotion properly. The skin burns and droops, I look creepy as soon as I try to make a face. Doctors can't fix these kinds of things, ive googled endlessly. I don't want this new me. I have found a proper source where you can buy euthanasia drugs online and im on the brink of purchase. I just want to go back but I can't. The good days are over. | suicide |
i just keep delaying the inevitable. i think im just going to do it, get it over withi dont think ill ever be genuinely happy again. my meds dont work, even doing things i used to love or hanging out with friends wont make me genuinely happy. i feel empty. i can laugh and smile but i dont *feel* it. my support systems arent enough and coping methods that suicide text lines give you are absolute shit. its like theres always some reason why i cant do it, like i have something to do tomorrow, which makes it sound stupid like its a scheduled plan like normal activities. most of the reason i want to die is because im so genuinely ugly. im not asking for reassurance. i am disgustingly ugly to look at. i have a fat stomach, ugly face, the works. i am sitting in between my two perfectly gorgeous friends and i cried in the bathroom earlier because we were swimming and in bikinis and i look like a fucking troll in comparison to them. i think after my trip, so in roughly two weeks, im going to kill myself. ive tried once before, and i failed, i am going to do it this time. im assuming ill be home from my trip by the twenty second, so i think thatll be the day. august . ill smash my head into a wall or jump in the street or some shit, all my other means of suicide have been confiscated. but im going to seriously do it im fucking done with living as this annoying ugly heartless asshole.im not asking for pity, or a cliche it all gets better i just wanted to rant. i know nobody will reads this but it just feels good to say it. | suicide |
im here and im queer filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text | non-suicide |
I feel like everything bad, big or small, pushes me closer and closer to suicideI take alot of things to heart. I can recall almost every cringey, embarassing and terrible momet in my life. It's only getting worse and more is piling on. I feel peace when I consider suicide. Suddenly my problems don't matter. | suicide |
Telling shit jokes everyday until o get a gf # There are three types of people in this world... Those who can count and those who cant | non-suicide |
Everyone share your rice purity score I got an and am slightly depressed about it :) | non-suicide |
Top sexiest furries: . Loona from helluva boss (but she has syphilis and is a bitch so i wouldn't fuck her) . Lola bunny . Braixen/delphox from Pokemon . Krystal from starfox . My fiancee Thank you | non-suicide |
What's your favourite phone innovation in the last years? We're in a weird stage where we're trying to break away from a slab design and experimenting with different builds. We've had displays where the screen creeps over the edges forming a side button, foldable phones and now there's the LG Wing, phones that double up as a projector and phones that can be controlled with an S pen or even a hand away from the phone (Samsung Galaxy Note series/ Google Pixel etc) I'm probably missing other technologoes too. What's your favourite innovation on the typical slab design? Personally, if I had to choose either of these to advance, I'd pick controlling your phone away from your phone via bluetooth stylus/hand swipes and gestures. | non-suicide |
"Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened"-Adolf Hitler To anyone who needs to hear this rn :) | non-suicide |
Please read this, and share it if you know someone who can help[ | suicide |
Im literally crying over my hw Im not even lying this is hard. This shit I swear to god is impossible. Fucking Jesus Christ made this homework then Satan just modified it like holy shit Im dying. | non-suicide |
Pro and cons with me Pros: I like cheese I like cuddles My stomach is iron so I can eat whatever shit is given to me People say I have a bit of a Scottish accent I am YouTuber Cons: When Im there you will have all your cheese stolen And Ill probably steal your dog And your fridge Then fall asleep on your sofa cuddling a lamp because who the fuck would cuddle me | non-suicide |
Ive been suicidal for years and no one knowsThe existential dread set in at about age . Im now and its only gotten worse. Im so intensely miserable nearly every waking hour, my only respite is sleep, as its unbearable to be alone with my own thoughts. I feel like a failure, but what even would be the point of success? To thrive in this fucked up world filled with awful, selfish, apathetic people who benefit from others destitution? Its depressing. If my parents werent still living and all of my student debt wouldnt default to my husband, I would have done it already. Just had to tell someone before I begin yet another day of hiding my shameful pain from the world. | suicide |
I give up on acne nowGot cystic acne when i was years old and now im and a half. It has caused me to be afraid of being around people in public. Have not talked to girls in forever. Everyday I wake up to realize that im ugly and fucking trash. I always hide from people I've known in the past in public, so that they can't see how ugly I am still while they are grown up and good looking. I am shy as fuck and basicly cant make new friends because of it. I'm avoiding parties and family meetups which, which makes people lose interest in me. If they only knew that I would love to go but simply cant because im looking like a trashcan. People have called me stuff troughout my life. Even my closest friends have called me shit. Been on accutane for a year and still no results. Its not worth the fight anymore, honestly i cant stand living with this for any longer, possible years?? fuck it I have not heard "i love you" or that i mean something to anyone for over years, only those negative comments. Not even from my family. The only person who felt like really cared about me was my grandmother and she passed in December. Im just honestly done with it | suicide |
Despair and depressionI have a pregnancy phobia and I suffer from anxiety and depression. I'm in despair and am scared to death even though it's more than likely purely irrational fear fed by anxiety. Having just gotten my life back to a good place, I don't want to kill myself because thing are going great. I'm afraid I might do something harmful to myself anyway. Would help to talk to a female | suicide |
I feel like i cant fall in love with a person. is this feeling normal? Okay Im almost and I just started college. So basically I have liked guys attractive and have liked guys from afar like celebrities or people I have never talked too but I have never liked someone for their personality in a romantic way. Like the guys I would have crushes on, I had this fake idea of who they were and I thought I was in love with their perosnality but I just ended up making up who I thought they were. I just dont understand what it feels like to fall in love with someones personality I guess. Im gay and in the closet so Ive never dated but Im just scared Ill never be in a true relationship because I feel like Im incapable for falling in love with someone. The relationship would just end up feeling like a friendship. Does anyone have any advice? | non-suicide |
A fact for you because you're bored ## People in Medieval England had rap battles. Before rap battles, there was "flyting," a trading of insults that was popular from the th to the th centuries in England and Scotland        dms are open because i'm bored | non-suicide |
HELP I GOT CAUGHT MASTURBATING BY MY PARENTS I WAS SO HORNY I HAVENT FAPPED IN MONTHS. JUST WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO CLIMAX BOTH MY PARENTS OPEN THE DOOR AND CAUGHT ME RED HANDED. WHAT DO I DO WHAT DO I DO. IF I DONT CLEAR THIS OFF MY ONLY SOURCE OF SERATONIN WILL BE GONE. I WONT BE ABLE TO FAP WITH THE GUILT OF THAT MOMENT AND THE FEAR OF GETTING CAUGHT. WHAT AM I GONNA DO. THEY DIDNT SEE THE TYPE OF PORN I WAS JACKING OFF TOO BUT THEY DID SEE ME WITH MY COCK IN MY HAND. IM DEAD. UNLESS YOU CAN GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO SURVIVAL I MIGHT ASWELL BE EXECUTED AND MY COCK CHOPPED OFF. | non-suicide |
Anyone wanna chat Discord is sansman# | non-suicide |
A permanent solution to my permanent problem?How would you advise someone to persist in life being a generally bothersome and rotten person? I hate most activities and the few things that I do enjoy doing, I fail at. I'm not interested in studying anything or any career. I'm a disappointment to my surviving parent and practically a stranger to everyone else that knows me. It's my own fault, I've always drifted at the edges of social groups, because to my core, I'm just not very interesting. A peripheral character, if you will. My conception was an accident, and the result of an affair to boot. My birth ruined two lives and broke apart my father's original family. I'm a financial burden on him, and before she drank herself to death, was a shitty son to my mother. I should note that I essentially gave up trying to help my mom a few months before her death and allowed her to kill herself. I guess I just don't see why I should continue to exist. Even the "good' days I have are tainted with thoughts that I'm a worthless piece of shit who doesn't deserve to experience them. **tl;dr** I'm a friendless loser who does nothing but consume resources and hate everything, myself included. What ***wouldn't*** killing myself fix? | suicide |
Never been in a relationship in years of my life (M) I dont really know what I do wrong, I get told Im nice by a lot of people, I dont believe I am ugly, im at pounds with a decent body. The only major problem with me is my teeth but I feel like that can be canceled out with everything else about me. Granted I really dont have many friends only that I consider friends for life, but I still post on social media and still hold contact with girls from school but like no one holds interest. So I dont know if its the way I act or talk or something but it just mind boggles me that a single girl does not want to talk to me. | non-suicide |
People on this sub be like Im depressed, *wink* now give me attention. | non-suicide |
If someone says they've never farted during sex. They are a liar....lol It will happen at least once in your life and It will make both you and your partner start laughing uncontrollably, For a good solid minute. The first time it happens it's so mortifying it's hilarious...lol | non-suicide |
I keep feeling badYeah really bad everyday is worse than the dah before. And i just overdosed a few hours ago | suicide |
First day The school network and system went belly up in the first hour because it couldnt handle all the students. Great start. | non-suicide |
reddit coins are . No one told me this before and it's Nice as fuck | non-suicide |
Don't you just hate it when you just bought a pen and it doesn't write anymore For serious, fuckio Faber Castell. I literally just bought you and I'm just trying to do my homework rn. | non-suicide |
I can't do life right nowI'm ending it. I'm offing myself. Moving was hard enough, dysphoria made it all worse, depression amplified it to the max, and a breakup broke the camel's back. I have nothing, I have no one, it's all a waste of time, I'm a waste of time. I'm going to overdose on my old antidepressants, wish me luck. | suicide |
Me thinking about how I use the word "Like" Ok, minus the normal uses, I also tend to use it for filler and whatnot, and usually it is \-A quantifier. This is my main use of it, "There were like people there" vs "There were people there". The "like" here is serving to say that the is not exact but that it's some low number like . I use it like this a lot. \-To mean "goes". This is less common for me, but in stuff like "And so this guy's like..." Usually I don't do this a whole lot but I do occasionally. There are probably others but me and my Midwest accent tends to use the filler like this. | non-suicide |
You knwo what I hate? When parents know, acknowledge, tell you, and even sometimes explain to you why they are the ones who did something wrong in a situation. And still get mad at you. Like, if you know YOU did something wrong, don't get mad at the other person. And also when they do something, not wrong or bad just something in general, and get mad at you for it. Especially when its when they say something. Like, I didn't make you say it. I was sleeping! I didn't make you say that. And lastly, I hate it when you are trying to be serious with your parents, but they are constantly joking around and not taking you seriously. Which doesn't let you say anything. But then they get mad at you for "talking so much". Like WHAT?! YOU WERE THE INLY ONE TALKING THE ENTIRE TIME! | non-suicide |
i'm giving up right nowi'm just done. i'm losing grip of my mental health. i feel insane yet sane for wanting to slit my wrists open. i don't want to live anymore. | suicide |
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