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word not describe utterly disappointed life right everything suck omega someone tell job deal shit god really gotten nerve lately oh not worry get better tell everyone else life seem work somehow not mine pain exhausted lorn companionship friendship happiness contentment longer even memory | non-suicide |
filling better stop thinking suicide actually not reason filling better today one day valving whit tot | suicide |
need answer thoughtsfor christian forum someone christian commits suicide go hell heaven | suicide |
imagine going school physically post made remote gang | non-suicide |
think finnaly learned funny laugh funeral check fight gay aztec warior check tell coach ciggarete backwards death check funny english check adopt invisible baby meme check | non-suicide |
realized unique quality easy tell people actively try avoid youbut thing bad forgotten know sure not forgotten simply repulsive people obvious actively try filter probably always could died right would take year someone would notice even decade people used know realize dead | suicide |
need horny like know need dick not need tell either depressed horny fuck tell | non-suicide |
really matter stay alive world go mean c mon wake wish not hide pain everyday drown wine nobody worry get depressed plus even tell others pain slightest bit laugh totally disregard fuck nobody fucking care mean shit unless feed part flesh tired giving flesh nothing tired heart destroyed yet tired waiting looking love love fuck even mean anymore nobody love love not exist animal crave kill eat fuck fucking disgusting ending cuz tired hurt others inconsiderately throw expect continue living smile face fuck see hell | suicide |
not normali overthink everything make everything hurt graduate soon idea life end loving boyfriend mental illness make think not realy normal thought feeling extreme want loved make everyone love le ovethinking everything wish could end right much holding back thibk boyfriend feel bad holding back iw sih could get not inderztsnd not go already one want anyways | suicide |
tell make another ugly drawing work read play game anything else comment | non-suicide |
ok narcissism come borderline personality disorder god either feel like world smothering worthless bad feel like complete perfect flawless god not harmed lol | non-suicide |
frozen pizza chicken cut rip chicken little piece put pizza put oven amp xb tatse amazing | non-suicide |
qhi clean month dad died week ago getting really bad not relapsed yet suicide constantly mind know killed would hurt family friend guess question would ask one friend would willing check every feel like going snap take bottle tylenol not want open anyone not know | suicide |
worried friend not know saymy friend borderline suicidal hid grandfather died sister committed suicide belief fault gone not really know tell problem life mile away know play wow together saying not know he going told please call anything he finishing work right co worker right really not way getting anyone life near know help please help | suicide |
yeah ice cool antarctica cooler thanks coming ted talk | non-suicide |
today feel today feel like need relax school like well shit not want work feel weird please give motivation make rest school day | non-suicide |
want filled really need notification please please please random bullshit not care please edit title missing notification society moment | non-suicide |
cat larry reason aliveim failed rdh program finally graduating not feel happiness single romanticize thought wife one day child dream since year old never paper real relationship talking fling guy every one friend around family starting plan rehome cat larry march dread best truly not want die want thing get better past year not every day think cuddling larry extra come march not going get | suicide |
good paying job dumb person drop high school gpa iq doom work mcdonald life | non-suicide |
anguish long time dealt final blow hiv gay male struggled gay long known sexuality diagnosed ocd depression put medication maintained really well school ended going good college hit huge wave depression dropped age moved back parent basically laid bed dark everyday past year occasionally turning alcohol relief beginning year decided put life together start building future quit drinking actively looking job possibly going back school fall summer contacted man ever dated not seen year town business asked wanted meet engaged thought safe sexual behavior always cautious protected however two week later got hit extreme illness not let even day month later immediately thought hiv gay man know sign look kept testing testing negative way month finally went final test month diagnosed man thought knew disappeared fell face planet completely avoided not infecting thought safe right thing protect guess wrong first person year feel unfair diagnosed starting put life back together feel like kicked already feel like got cement block foot feel stuck job skill resume friend live home parent money health insurance way pay hiv treatment mean probably die slow painful death thinking ending get point already lot physical pain illness doctor say strange new infection devastated tired want go sleep never wake edit today last day tonight going end ride goodbye everyone | suicide |
scaredi not know fuckign scared stood train station shit tonne pill pocket not want alive fucking scared | suicide |
finally rid box cutter throwaway obvious reason today destroyed box cutter using cut since fourteen year old feel like huge weight lifted shoulder thank support | suicide |
florida themed costume tomorrow spirit week dress florida day wear must school appropriate | non-suicide |
tomorrow night shall longer exist everything planned waiting right time not going pretty sight afraid leave behind family made decision longer wish go tomorrow find peace world never could | suicide |
feel everyone brainwashed punk used cool seem kind pussy based people met well everyone brainwashed | non-suicide |
dog put thought hit rock bottom rock bottom hit back | suicide |
got kissed first time omg unbelievable still not believe amp xb mother kissed oh fucking god | non-suicide |
point life anyway tell happiness never really say happiness silly concept perfect life not really exist one thing learned life fucking suck nothing ever happens wanted even rare occasion never good hoped would everyone keep telling school college best period life school sucked not imagine college different really get worse not die young anyways not drug non stop overdose live hedonistic life die young without enduring another moment pain not really think happy life shitty world | suicide |
nothing helpsi could vent sub minute part fucking problem not help either kind word rando not know internet not help not anything real something substance fuck got like week life left not wait god bless gun dealer not trynna wait till save fuck | suicide |
subtle way rebel hey teen found parent going trump rally tonight know bi well ignore know not showy always pretty docile looking little way rebellious nothing would get kicked get phone taken away thing would piss anyone idea peace love fdt lt | non-suicide |
lf switch friend lt play stardew valley mario kart warframe looking diablo game hmu play stardew valley pls | non-suicide |
boy reddit get gfs lonely af | non-suicide |
tired lately tired angry finding sleeping longer hour time even eating le back high school introvert nature work getting able schedule standard keep changing shift without letting know people know work position store not payroll overlap shift trying get position month not seem find someone take shift getting sick tired nice potential client cleaning mess co worker even needing deal co worker expect world every time try put foot someone want something constantly get undermined manager promised pay raise yearly pay inscrease point really not know worth really want quit working need money job save go college get liscence car know kill right not worry reason not killed back might mom not stand think bad might get may not show physically obviously world know wrong feel even not enough connection friend make another reason not end not care leave aftermath not mother decide finally end want able end way not able bring back not want saddle family burden paying medical expense force feeling helplessness hope may one day come coma feel free remove post violates rule needed let | suicide |
important question watch barcelona v atletico madrid tonight tottenham v man city | non-suicide |
not take anymoreall internal fighting resistance fucking hate want die one care one love one want broken not repaired kill please end fucking life | suicide |
end iti fucking done life pointless keep trying not reason live none mom not best people always religious trying save soul age extremely strict stuff got control scream constantly small stuff one point starved brother ungrateful made drink cup soap turn every damn thing dad let u happen say mother tell happening not drive use phone leave house stupid everything family joke actually adhd mild autism speech impediment lack concentration got b c last semester brother get straight mom point stupid compared chance possible considered hilarious hate started becoming depressed due home stuff bullied since third grade past year group guy threw rock walking class one threw pepsi bottle face school nothing cutting since clean month last summer raped family friend hate talking parent not know reason not killed yet possibility seeing panic disco tour mom took not mention panic house anymore hurt worse guess sorry | suicide |
make sentence funny add sentence make funny example taking care dog taking care dog | non-suicide |
yo boy sub still virgin not know seems like every time browse sub | non-suicide |
want die not push itone step towards edge would gone not take last step | suicide |
girl premarital sex go seriously go vanish generation girl really bunch whore help | non-suicide |
going call help one timeif fails resorting suicide could say might last option stuck going stuck another several month thanks covid politic shit happening hopefully free call help | suicide |
anyone actually going halloween sure asked anyone still go either trick treating halloween party friend said might not know parent would think tool old smth | non-suicide |
really confused not sure bisexual straight took sexual orientation test month ago said bi retook test today said straight amp xb really confused please help | non-suicide |
totally losthi already poster something feel tonight thing worst today boyfriend left feel lost sick love know lost last thing made able smile wan die know not able improve situation inable make friend happy anything else rest piece shit tired everything not know finish one day think date coming | suicide |
mouthy asf someone sensitive wtf not lying though anyways wyd bae | non-suicide |
got threatened riding bike wearing dad old police hat context father patrol cop hostage negotiater year retired born got different job decided since raining going wear hat since kid dream become cop like dad not thing else besides dad pride knew would carry legacy let u come back present grabbed hat rack picked dad old police cap got mask headed garage get bike go excersise fast forward couple minute later got street couple guessing walk even though raining guess like rain much yelled know heard word perfectly trump suporting bitch couple must old believe not like trump much next guy think horrible person still like police not mean support trump remember not police bad keep drug street arest woman abuser rapist also keep gun street neighbor not get shot let u come back heard word decided ignor keep riding get block hear word swear find live man point scared people look like people close enough probably follow home book home not enough time try figure going go straight garage kept open forgot close phone guessing dad would close look behind make sure not following slammed door told parent happened needle say not going bike ride thing cool moral story careful wear mask careful thanks coming ted talk read whole thing good job | non-suicide |
hi year old girl lol get pranked actually octopus get outta horny hentai addicted degenerate | non-suicide |
dosage questionare gr benzodiazepine enough die | suicide |
message future past presenta lot people think suicide people would love gone come scared end also issue came lethal way ending everything yes tried survived long term damage one know tried feel finally got past fear pulling trigger whatever end life not want anymore may not much longer still thing want happens ill make sure one thing person could change not named finally ready let go everything people think psychical pain worse honestly mental pain mess make dumb thing truly mental unstableness worst thing happen anyone part life good majority not though future fuck future not yet matter | suicide |
feeling lostive never considered suicidal feel like wall caving life falling apart turmoil tension feel inside ripping apart tired hate world hate way feel constantly even moreso fact not handle daughter feel guilty bringing cruel unjust would paradoxical sound giving life child anything death sentence long term suffering past day thought nothing taking pistol putting hole fucking head dissonance get not add angst feel like coward wanting kill even coward not follow fucking miserable | suicide |
reason date least six beyblades | non-suicide |
really need adviceim going kill sister heart issue really not want heart stop see death approach leave note saying not enter room guess enter anyway maybe get lost couple day first get kind used idea | suicide |
planned not follow really messed one music one would please talk would eternally grateful | suicide |
pill sleepfor past week taking random pill find sleeping hope not wake yesterday took mg propranolol felt like verge death going take rest pill tonight mg hopefully trick | suicide |
join meh among u code uiyfeq feajwhdjsafkh sdakhjdf shadfjk hjhf | non-suicide |
incessant occurrence need end sign human wired ever present loop quitting whole human experience | suicide |
watch youtube rewind last cringe year merry christmas | non-suicide |
second planned suicidei hopeless person try dm help not respond trust issue one really trust want talk dad he narcissist he parent make admits stressful told suicidal point asking family shit talker gossiper not understand suppose talk realized tonight faceless person lot people always alone even family gathering wanted die january st could not dad took long thick cord charge car outside found new method month ago use maybe die birthday next may month away know kill learned damned word lucky never witness anything horrible world already wrote suicide note sitting closet hope find courage end may already set date virtual calendar birthday go church talk woman helped went church first time helped lot last person ever talk worth precious woman give homemade necklace sew genuine human really loved elementary school teacher | suicide |
feel like argument fight family like would better not know parent would sad honestly think life might actually improve feel like right regret not know | suicide |
new reason joined well tired life living hearing thing everyday not need mom hate dad left dad almost sexually harrased useless nothing not love anymore regret raising grandmother slut puta tagalog languange roughly mean slut letting boyfriend fuck low life not going succeed world go live run away already not deal anymore minute would soft spoken wash rinsw repeat every single damn time break want not know run away die something smoke relieve pressure chest cut boyfriend secretly together not know anymore love love know not feel regret thought leaving family super supportive though u sick say sick much easier least cure somehow not seem cure hate awake not function make family worse lost sigh not know typing not know looking something encouragement help guess relieve pressure ever present pressure | suicide |
owo eats liver | non-suicide |
addict telling friend going rough time topic addiction came asked addicted anything said masturbating guess jokingly kind went rant explain basically fap mean guess everyday could bad one often | non-suicide |
need little advice found girlfriend group chat people something similar amp said not allowed join feel like paranoid lot trust issue really hate not knowing happening anyone anything helpful could not feel way | non-suicide |
anyone want get married sex marriage | non-suicide |
know not popular opinion think not good idea eat twinkie box oreo bag pop rock coke opinion guy | non-suicide |
not anymoreim year old whole life struggled mental illness trauma missed much could not enjoy anything life never friend people thought friend hurt raped ex girlfriend still love wanted friend broke ghosted fucking hurt parent disappointed still live one never talk not know fuck life high school year college credit not keep fucking job therapy year nothing fucking help tell thing fucked therapist stop treating entirely not even anything right fucking covid sit relive trauma cry want kill fucking bad sick tired alone getting hurt one fucking care say not pretty sure die one would cry maybe people fucked would act sad say good friend everything bullshit fucking done everything never get better point | suicide |
fraynot sure right place go struggled depression suicidal ideation long remember mean kid remember badly wanted end life rough not think ever happy life consists severe low idle guess shitty son failed brother piss poor job boyfriend pushing away woman ever cared thing ever really good failing guy everything twice even three time not stop fuckin said managed walk away something hope help someone anyone fight everyday fight tired continue fight point shit stop see day earned quote grey help drowning feel like way make | suicide |
not matter life thing going not even care matter never person want keep watching people live life sideline believed reincarnation would probably already gone want someone else | suicide |
imposter syndrome anyone else feel like lying faking attempt like honestly suffering would done w hesitation must exaggerating pain think twice anything even solitude feel like attention | suicide |
one absolutely hate hearing seeing people cry fake real reminds person love cry hate not want cry ever | non-suicide |
school today awful late two class teacher high key judging not know expect technically allowed bit late still annoyed annoyed | non-suicide |
anyone talk tonighttoday shitty day feel suicidal | suicide |
weak suicidei want die bad know not able becous mother love close atempt thought hurting stop anything still scared day feel bad even tought not stop go trough | suicide |
actually looking forward school obviously not work anything see friend becuase post history tell feeling really shit lately even though sorta excited anytime think get knot stomach worried happen going back school like not get bullied anxiety go high roof overreact everything girl laugh within meter instantly freak go shy becuase think laughing right everyone else | non-suicide |
parent like research | non-suicide |
need bit advice scared friend group consists friend friend femalefriend mention relevant soo became friend femalefriend recently not say anything parent knew would make weird last night friend femalefriend watching funny video reading funny book call lost track time dad came upstairs made not late soo tonight come downstairs water mom giving intense glare desthglaring hard face shaking asks call girl said not even know allowed female friend not say friend girlfriend said not mom say not know anyone named femalefriend furious told suspicious going go town friend friday scared not know | non-suicide |
always going leave people read people seem | non-suicide |
got bored glance inside pant wanted proud peen make lil scene bed want look schmeat content beat average guy wish dick lil bit longer could feel stronger get good head cozy bed not case yeah yeah oh wish dick lil bit longer like seven eight masturbate wish dick lil bit longer look not mean imply cock really small want girl see really really mean look peen | non-suicide |
random people subreddit kind supportive people interact every day indifferent unaware school level focus teaching fact figure yet often neglect subject would provide u tool knowledge nurture maintain sound mind body many people suffer mental illness yet resource treat rehabilitate limited often expensive counselor therapist insist normal well educated gainful employment appear physically healthy etc disqualify u experiencing crippling anxiety deep depression suicidal thought feel like superstar one day feel like worthless burden world next medicine supposed help u many undesirable side effect purposely physical emotional harm already suffering greatly respective type mental illness going movie social gathering concert u fear apprehension others enthusiastically look forward attending event invisible force mental illness negative impact life life family friend | suicide |
want live not like thisi dealing sort chronic intestinal disease yet officially diagnosed doctor say likely crohn disease spent last month constant pain tethered bathroom unable anything lay bed grovel mother cook meal not stand stove long enough amp xb dealt suicidal thought depression past month ago felt like finally moved past time life not want spend life like last night searching online way alleviate pain found story story horrible surgery health condition people crohn deal not know worried moment confirmed dealing rest life going lose reason keep living amp xb scared want live continues not see reason not kill | suicide |
know embarrassing saying waitress asks enjoy meal saying fight mom say fuck | non-suicide |
gender supersmart like smart pepol | non-suicide |
day alone not sleep work today want end want wait alone house parent not care gone sister not care around extended family turn december entire family leaf europe want last moment alone not wait longer | suicide |
want diei struggling life ready give first cousin sexually assaulting father never apologized say feeding giving clothing perk could get year able escape find place year barely making end meet managed unattractive one love called friend talk need something nicest person know yet worse happen lost job hour ago failed last college test tried tried someone would like kill please let know christian not sin although starting reconsider christian nothing bad thing happening person god suppose save | suicide |
lost one person love mostshes moved never loved back close friend fucked pushed away happy fucking miserable not want feeling anymore going end least gone mean not around stress anymore | suicide |
must hell lot people world like want die not got gut k year old feel lucky going ivy league school fall full ride yet never felt alone life feel unwanted burden unneeded time imagine downing bottle sleeping pill hiding closet slitting wrist not work courage wishing maybe hopefully bus car come hit not kill group never felt alone feel like always odd one outcast rang true past couple week participated pre college summer program month ago feel one notice everyone group best friend felt like always outlier couple day ago student meetup area bunch u going college live area meet hung group guy trying flirt one girl ignored not even try carry conversation even notice huge blow self esteem never felt ugly kept asking wrong feel matter much effort put try socialize put guy ever going interested nobody like jealous pretty girl especially people surrounded lot friend everything going not people lucky whereas luck keep fucking life thought college going differen feel like high school high school hell term loneliness never boyfriend never kissed college even start many student already know hooking feel pessimistic prospect making friend starting relationship even family feel like outcast kindhearted family sometimes feel like odd one one struggling depression rebellious parent not understand depressed tell go help long time struggled feeling worthlessness loneliness low self esteem issue seem mundane struggling loneliness life maybe killing would not seem bad one would cry anyway try thing love reason not even work motivation used love writing story not anymore feel not good enough everyday heavy feeling feel like cry reason pretty sure one day death going suicide feel like caught sort perpetual sadness come go never leaf entirely | suicide |
anyone wana minecraft survival world kidding tell hate bio post | non-suicide |
heated argument blue haired bimbo freaking word trap offensive trans woman bitch trap crossdresser still attracted woman trans person identifies opposite gender | non-suicide |
think enjoy year going iti think one year honest overwhelming point come conclusion never stop depressed marriage suffering greatly feel empty feel nothing numbness want die not sad way guess want perpetual feeling anxiety emptiness attachment even people love building life mistake not know thought someone like grew terrible unstable situation point anger issue make injure not showering hoping something kill sleep drinking point black drunk could feel something not know thought would okay sometimes people not cut shit ya know sometimes shit life die think fair guess genuinely think might not know guess content time try make husband happy possible know find someone else better partner family look second go back know sister would upset not let watch lose anymore peace never pictured living long life could never picture actually kid think always knew die would one end think realistic not everyone happy | suicide |
beginning feel trying kill birthday might long wait happening late class dissapointed yet not know expected hope wait birthday december not sure people keep saying give another chance sure thing change nothing father mindset everything hate not like stepping floor not like seeing mirror reflection still want go sleep forever feeling asleep unconcious amazing not feeling anything want left alone rot corner somewhere noone find wish longer exist want pop begone done memory happened happened moment longer exist despite bringing grief loved one longer feel pain | suicide |
many would buy rgb music controlled vibrating sex toy | non-suicide |
not worth itliterally every fucking thing life going downhill grade shit mom taking away everything enjoy killing feel like smart thing right much pussy actually follow | suicide |
change mind gender change mind | non-suicide |
not wait end pitiful pathetic existenceit not help civilization society falling apart due adverse effect climate change matter time mother nature wipe pathetic blimp humanity fuck even bother existence going die climate change year anyway not help genetic low iq trash not solve basic puzzle numeric problem beyond middle school level nervous breakdown anxiety attack stepping foot outside house afraid people described cynical asshole vehement hatred mankind humanity want live world innocent people viciously killed everyday live world thing guaranteed suffering | suicide |
worn outi l extremely tired life not even sad bored living not looking forward monotony adulthood struggled major depression past two year left feeling apathetic empty told parent half year ago said would help seem forgotten seem like happy person people around buts mostly facade not want hurt anybody also not want live anymore | suicide |
hypothetically gf treat everyone like shit breakup like girl walk say hi shove face ground say hi back | non-suicide |
guwys help gwot pathowogen stawting become fuwy halp | non-suicide |
fun fact sneeze orgasm grab pepper boy better porn guess | non-suicide |
friend need help depressed suicidal girlfriend roommate issue self image way life going late dead end job not making much money girlfriend covering expense like rent utility depressed not able support near past tried overdose pill not health insurance think really need see professional e g psychologist life metro boston area misc info drink lot drunk get really depressed point cry uncontrollably never seen side one thing sure not drink problem really way area comfortability expertise weight issue self esteem issue parent much help think mom say need go church talked drunken night opened pandora box realized idea thought could help loose weight problem deeper exercising help recommendation great everything back normal friend seems fine happy know nothing resolved problem arises every seems like brushed rug another couple week not know appropriate sub reddit post please let know another appropriate one | suicide |
trigger not readthinking hanging near future recent happening life reminded nothing good waiting anyway love family not think support anymore weak tired much pain thinking spending rest day slaving away work trying strong one taken toll one le person one le mouth feed maybe die family get real help need right crutch need set free need set free okay okay wish get courage least year end maybe new year next week hope without faltering really miss dog think better without | suicide |