“Jeonggukie, wake up! We’re going to do something really fun today!”

Jeongguk was sleeping peacefully until Hoseok clamored into his room, turning on the lights and speaking loudly. Jeongguk was planning on getting to sleep in a bit since it’s the weekend, after all, but Hoseok had different plans for him, apparently.

“What’s going on, hyung?” Jeongguk asks, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. He’s still very groggy and he can’t quite piece together what’s going on. He thought it was some kind of an emergency at first, with how loudly Hoseok was speaking to him. However, his brother seems to be very excited about something. He isn’t sure what.

“It’s Appa’s birthday today, of course!” Hoseok says happily. He seems incredibly excited, which isn’t unusual. Hoseok tends to get excited about even the silliest of things. It’s no wonder he’s practically bouncing off the walls because it’s his father’s birthday.

“Oh,” Jeongguk says, still feeling sleepy. He’s happy that it’s his father’s birthday, but he still wants to go back to sleep. Why couldn’t this have waited a few more minutes? “Happy birthday.” He puts his head back down on his pillow, beginning to drift off.

“Nope!” Hoseok says, grabbing his younger brother’s arm. “You’re helping us prepare, Kookie! We don’t have a lot of time, you know. Appa got called into work for a few hours, so we’re going to bake a cake from scratch for him. It’ll be really fun, but I need you to wake up, okay?”

Oh, that does sound like fun. Jeongguk yawns and forces himself out of bed, heading to the kitchen in his pajamas and still-messy hair with Hoseok.

The kitchen counter is covered with cooking supplies. Mixing bowls, spatulas, and several ingredients cover the kitchen counter to the point where Jeongguk can hardly make out the counter itself. “Oh, Jeonggukie!” Jin says once he notices Jeongguk with Hoseok. He’s wearing an apron and he seems to be preparing even more ingredients. Jeongguk didn’t know there were that many things that go into making a cake. “I’m so happy you’re up! Hoseok probably told you already, but we’re going to be making a cake for your Appa today. Do you want to help?”

Of course he does. Jeongguk loves his Appa so much and baking him a cake will probably make him really happy. It’ll be the best birthday present ever. While Jeongguk is helping Jin prepare the ingredients, Jimin and Taehyung are standing idly by.

They both woke up early to prepare the cake. The only problem is they haven’t exactly made up yet, and there is still a heavy tension between the two of them.

Jimin can tell that Taehyung hasn’t heeded his advice about Jackson. It seems like the two are still sitting together at lunch every day, and Taehyung has  been going out almost every day “to meet up with a friend,” as he’s been telling Jin and Namjoon.

He’s just worried about his brother. Why can’t Taehyung understand that? He seems to be way too infatuated with Jackson and Jimin doesn’t think that’s healthy. Everything between them happened so fast and Jimin hardly knows anything about the guy. He can’t approve of the relationship unless he knows Jackson through and through. He just wants his brother to be safe. If anything bad happened to him because of his relationship with Jackson, Jimin would be devastated.

Taehyung is scared. It kind of feels like the walls are closing in on him and he wants to leave the kitchen immediately, but that would only raise even more suspicion.

He feels trapped by Jimin. He knows his brother isn’t doing anything intentionally, but he still feels apprehensive around him ever since the argument. He isn’t sure what Jimin is thinking about him, but it can’t be good. Jimin probably hates him
now. He yelled at him at lunch and Jimin never raises his voice at him.

Taehyung wants to make amends with his brother, but he’s afraid. He’s afraid that Jimin hates him, doesn’t want him, wants to hurt him. After what Jackson did to him that day, he isn’t sure who he can trust anymore. Jackson never raised his voice at him before and he ended up slapping him. If Jimin was willing to yell at him in the middle of the cafeteria, what else could he do?

Another, much more valid reason why Taehyung is currently afraid is because he had to text Jackson earlier to cancel his plans with him.

He wasn’t sure what the family would do to celebrate his father’s birthday, so he thought it would be fine if he hung out with his boyfriend for a little while before it was time to celebrate. However, when Jin told him that Namjoon got called into work and they would be baking a cake, he knew he wouldn’t have time to see Jackson today.

Taehyung: Hey Jackson. I’m really sorry but I can’t make it to your place today. It’s my dad’s birthday and we’re making a cake. It’s really important. [9:53am]

Taehyung: I’m sorry. [9:54am]

Jackson responded only a few seconds after Taehyung sent his last text.

Jackson: are you kidding me??? we were supposed to work on the project today! [9:54am]

Jackson: it’s the last time we can meet before the presentation on monday! [9:54am]

Jackson: if you fuck up the project i’m not gonna go easy on you. remember that. [9:55am]

Taehyung felt his heart beat quickly in his chest. He knew it was important that they met today to work on the project worth a large portion of their grade, but his father’s birthday was even more important. He knew Jackson would be upset, but he forgot how upset his boyfriend could get.

So now, Taehyung is scared because of his brother and his boyfriend. He never thought things would be this way, but life has a way of surprising him, he has come to realize. He just hopes this baking session will go by easily without any incident.

Yoongi is looking forward to baking this cake.

Out of all of the brothers, he’s one of the only ones who can actually cook. Jin always jokes that it’s because he’s the only one who follows the recipe, which is probably true. If the recipe calls for a cup of flour, he’s adding one cup of flour. He doesn’t see what’s so difficult about baking.

“Those are pasteurized eggs, Jimin,” Yoongi says, watching his brother struggling to choose the right eggs for the recipe. “You’re supposed to be using regular eggs.”

Jimin sighs in frustration. “What’s the difference, hyung?” he asks. “They’re both eggs! Why does it matter which one has a fancy name and which one we buy at the store most of the time?” He groans. “Baking is so hard.”

Yoongi finds that pretty hilarious. He isn’t really sure why his brothers have such a hard time with cooking and baking, but it’s fun to help them. “They look very different on the inside, Jimin,” he explains. “If we use pasteurized eggs, the cake won’t come out the way we want it to. Do you know how to crack an egg?” Jimin shakes his head, looking clueless.

Yoongi sighs. This is going to be a long day, isn’t it?

While Yoongi is helping Jimin figure out which eggs to use, Hoseok is helping Taehyung with mixing some of the ingredients. “It’s not a test, Tae,” Hoseok jokes, noticing how frightened his brother looks. “You can relax. Here, I’ll show you how to mix it.”

Hoseok isn’t sure why Taehyung has been more reserved lately. He knows about Jackson, but he doesn’t think that has anything to do with his strange behavior. It’s probably because of the argument he had with Jimin, he reasons. He hopes the two will be able to make up soon. He hates seeing them so distant from each other like this.

“We’ll wait for Yoongi and Jimin to finish figuring out what an egg looks like before we add the butter and the sugar,” he jokes. Taehyung cracks a smile at that and Hoseok is happy he could help his brother relax a little. “Just between you and me,” Hoseok says in a whisper so the rest of the family can’t hear, “Jimin is really sorry for what he said to you.”

Taehyung isn’t sure how Hoseok knows about their argument, but he nods nonetheless. “I’m sorry, too,” he says. “I was being really stubborn and Jimin was right. I should’ve just listened to him.”

Hoseok gives Taehyung a pat on the shoulder. “I’m not the one you should be telling, Tae,” he says. “Go on. I’ll make something up to get Yoongi-hyung to help me for a while.” He clears his throat, then shouts, “Yoongi-hyung! I think I broke the spatula!”

He hears Yoongi mutter something about how it shouldn’t be physically possible to do that, but the eldest brother heads over to Hoseok’s and Taehyung’s station nonetheless. Hoseok winks at Taehyung, letting him know that now is the perfect time to make up with Jimin.

Hoseok has given him the perfect opportunity and Taehyung doesn’t want his brother’s efforts to go to waste, so he heads over to Jimin. “Hey, Jimin,” he says nervously, looking down at his feet. “Can we, um, talk? About what happened the other day?”

Jimin seems surprised that Taehyung is talking to him. Then, he says loudly, “Dad! Tae and I are going to get some decorations from the attic!” It’s not a very good excuse, but Jin is to preoccupied with teaching Jeongguk how to mix ingredients properly that he doesn’t dwell on it for too long.

Instead of going to the attic, Jimin leads Taehyung into his room. He sits Taehyung down on the bed and sighs. “I’m really sorry, Tae,” he says immediately. Taehyung wasn’t expecting the apology to happen so quickly. In fact, he was prepared to apologize himself. “I should never have yelled at you like that. I know what it does to you and I completely disregarded that because I was upset. I know I hurt you really badly and I’m so, so sorry. Do you think you could ever forgive me?”

Taehyung blinks. This is all happening so quickly that he doesn’t really know what to think. All he knows is that Jimin is apologizing to him. This is what he wanted, right? So then why does he feel so guilty?

“It’s okay, Jimin,” Taehyung says, flashing his brother a smile. It’s a bit forced, but it’s the thought that counts. “I know you were just worried about me. I’m not mad at you, I promise. I was actually going to apologize to you for not listening to you. I should’ve listened, Jimin. I’m sorry.”

Taehyung is expecting Jimin to say something else, but instead his brother pulls him into a tight hug. “You don’t have to apologize, Tae,” he insists. “This is my fault and my fault alone. You didn’t do anything wrong, so don’t think like that, okay? As your older brother, I’m super protective of you and I just didn’t want you getting hurt. I shouldn’t have yelled at you, though. That was completely wrong of me.”

“It’s okay, Jimin,” he says. “I don’t blame you. I know you were just worried about me, and I really appreciate it.”

“So, tell me,” Jimin says. When Taehyung gives him a confused look, he elaborates, “How are things with Jackson? Good, I hope. If he does anything bad to you, I swear to god, I’ll—“

“It’s fine, hyung,” Taehyung laughs. How ironic this is. If Jimin knows about what Jackson did to him, his boyfriend would probably be a dead man. That’s just another reason why he can’t tell his family, though. That, and the shame of it all. “Jackson’s good to me. We’re just seeing how things go for now. I’m happy with him, Jimin, so you don’t need to worry.”

Jimin seems unconvinced, but he nods nonetheless. It’s going to be hard to put the big brother instinct aside, but he trusts Taehyung. He’s sure that if anything was going awry in his relationship with Jackson, he would tell Jimin immediately. “Okay,” he says, choosing to believe Taehyung. “We should probably head back now. If we’re gone for too long, Dad will probably get suspicious.”

“So...are we okay now?” Taehyung asks. His voice is so small and vulnerable that it reminds Jimin of when they were kids. He isn’t sure if that’s a good thing.

“I thought that was obvious, Tae,” Jimin says, smiling. “Now, come on. We have a cake to finish baking.” He extends a hand for his brother to take, which he does.

They head back to the kitchen and Jin gives them a weird look. “Where are the decorations?” he asks. “I thought you two were going to the attic to look for some.”

Jimin looks at Taehyung and the brothers exchange a knowing glance. “We couldn’t find any,” Jimin says, which makes Taehyung laugh.

Jin can tell that there is more to the story, but he doesn’t push it. He knows that Jimin and Taehyung haven’t been getting along for a few days now, but it seems like things have finally gotten better between them. At least that’s one less thing for him to worry about now.

The only other thing is making sure his husband’s birthday cake is edible.


Nie Huaisang has never wanted kids, despite being an omega. A dependent, defenseless human being that literally wouldn’t survive without the help of others? That sounds like himself. How could he ever raise a kid?

There’s something about being pregnant that really makes it clear that he’s changed. No longer a child, no longer chasing justice (revenge) with tunnel vision, focused on past ignorance and futures cut short.

He’s just started showing, barely a bump to his stomach, really, and yet the urge to place his hand on his baby, protectively, lovingly, is

strong

. He feels like he rubs his belly at least 80% of the time he’s awake, and maybe when he’s sleeping as well. He can’t stop thinking about the life growing inside him, something

good

 coming from him for once, maybe the only good thing he’s ever done for this world—

“Huaisang.”

Nie Huaisang pulls himself away from his thoughts, glancing up into Wei Wuxian’s knowing smile. The helpless smile he puts up in response comes naturally. “I’m sorry, Wei-xiong! I’ve been up in the clouds lately, it seems.”

Wei Wuxian shifts closer, moving blankets and pillows around them as he goes. His scent fills the air, fruity with a bit of spice, and he curls up against Nie Huaisang’s side. “First of all, call me Wuxian; aren’t we brothers already? And second of all, you can’t fool me. You’re scared, right? That you’re not good enough for this?” He places his hand next to Nie Huaisang’s, rubbing gentle circles into his stomach.

Nie Huaisang doesn’t

flinch

, but it’s a near thing. Since when has Wei Wuxian been good at reading him?

(Since the temple, when Wei Wuxian watched him with eyes full of disappointment, betrayal, so similar to Jiang Cheng’s eyes glaring into his own barely a week later, when he visited to talk about what he’d done, what he’d

almost

 done—)

“Let me tell you this, as someone who’s been there: those thoughts don’t leave. But that’s okay. You want to take care of your child, yeah? Then everything’s alright. We’ll all help.” Wei Wuxian pauses before laughing. “Did you ever think that we’d be cuddling in a nest, talking about fatherhood, after everything that happened?”

Nie Huaisang sighs, letting the rest of the tension that had been lingering in his shoulders fade away, scenting lightly. He leans into the other omega’s warmth and responds, “No, honestly. But I think I might… be happy that things turned out this way.”

“You’d better. I don’t wanna have to kill you because you stomped on my brother’s heart!”

Wei Wuxian grins and nudges him annoyingly, and Nie Huaisang grins back, as if the years between them hadn’t ever strained their friendship, as if they were back in Gusu, two junior disciples with a penchant for mischief.

——

It doesn’t matter how long Nie Huaisang has known Lan Wangji, the man is still just as insanely difficult to read. His intense stares still look like glares, his stoic expressions like disapproval.

When Lan Wangji steps into the room with a baby in each arm, however, it’s really hard to be intimidated by him. The man dips his head in greeting and sits nearby, setting his twins down to crawl around. His gaze slides down to Nie Huaisang’s belly, which has definitely grown since the last time they’ve seen each other, and he looks back up at the omega in silent question.

Well, Nie Huaisang isn’t the

best

 at reading the guy, so he isn’t sure, ever, about Lan Wangji’s true feelings, but he

thinks

 he’s being asked about his well-being.

“Getting pretty big, aren’t I?” He wonders how Lan Wangji will respond, hiding a mischievous smile behind his sleeve. He’s asked Jiang Cheng already, who’d looked at him with apprehension before saying that he’s beautiful. A safe answer. Lan Wangji tends to be more honest, however, and Nie Huaisang… is just a bit insecure about the weight he’s gaining.

The alpha hums in what seems like agreement. “Healthy,” he says, patting Nie Huaisang’s shoulder gently. “Good for the baby.” He frowns when Nie Huaisang does, a little confused. “What is the problem?”

“I’m fat and ugly now, that’s what the problem is!” The uncomfortable look Lan Wangji gives him at that outburst makes him want to laugh. “Sorry, I’m just teasing, don’t take it so seriously.”

Lan Wangji’s frown deepens. “Jiang Wanyin…. If you have any problems, I am here.”

Nie Huaisang

does

 laugh at that. He knows that Lan Wangji isn’t fond of Jiang Cheng, but to think that he’s even willing to defend Nie Huaisang’s honor! Maybe it’s a good thing that he found out about the honorable Hanguang-Jun’s secret love of trashy romance novels. “No, there are no problems! Jiang Cheng is very good to me, though don’t tell him I said that,” he says, as if Lan Wangji would ever willingly speak to Jiang Cheng. With a wink, he adds, “He has to earn it.”

Very subtly, Lan Wangji shifts away, and Nie Huaisang laughs again. “The novel,” the alpha says, desperate to change the subject.

“Ah, from last time?” Nie Huaisang lets him get away with it. “Did you enjoy it? I’ve got a few more that are pretty similar, though only one is really worth the read in my opinion….”

——

The pack room is what Nie Huaisang calls it, because receiving the others in the room he shares with Jiang Cheng, in

their

 nest, seems a little inappropriate to him. There are times when the omega only wants the scent of his partner, only wants the feeling of his love. He knows, however, that having the rest of them stinking up the place wherever they choose to exist is… Well, there

are

 other people that live here, after all.

So he has a room where he can receive the other members of his pack, where their somehow calming scents make him feel safe and reassured even though he definitely didn’t agree to be a part of this pack in the first place, and technically, it’s not even his, it’s Wei Wuxian’s, and he’s still grumbling about that, because who put Wei Wuxian in charge?

Anyway, the whole pack thing is the reason why he has three people about half his age loitering in his pack room, though he barely knows them, really. Nie Huaisang doesn’t mind Wei Wuxian, doesn’t mind Lan Wangji either. But this… this is just awkward.

Jin Ling kneels properly with his head held high, staring resolutely at Nie Huaisang’s stomach. It’s omega instinct, of course, coupled with Jin Ling’s very intense focus on babies, but it still makes Nie Huaisang shift uncomfortably from the attention. The two next to Jin Ling keep silent as well, clearly affected by the atmosphere.

Nie Huaisang breathes out a sigh of frustration. Curse Wei Wuxian for putting him in this situation! See if he tries to bring him back from the dead ever again!

Surprisingly, before he can say anything, Jin Ling speaks up. “I’ve had a long time to come to terms with what you did, and I understand why you did it.” He shrugs, trying to seem nonchalant. “And, well, you make Uncle happy, and Senior Wei said you’re not the type to just have children, so…”

What’s with Wei Wuxian and exposing all of his secrets?

“He’s right,” Nie Huaisang says, fingers caressing his baby bump possessively. “I never wanted children. But if it’s to provide Jiang Cheng with an heir…”

Jin Ling huffs, scent leaking out as he moves closer. “Just be honest and say you love him! You’re really not as subtle as you think you are. Anyway,” he places his hand on Nie Huaisang’s stomach eagerly, ignoring his raised eyebrows, “how’s the baby? Do you know the gender yet? What names did you have in mind? Is Uncle treating you right?”

The barrage of questions only stops when one of Jin Ling’s mates, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji’s son, puts his hand on his omega’s shoulder. “A-Ling, let him breathe,” the beta says with a smile. “I’m sure Sect Leader Jiang treats Sect Leader Nie just fine.”

Jin Ling flushes red with embarrassment. “Okay,

yeah

, I know that!”

The alpha, another Lan, pipes up next to him with a grin and a pat on the head, “A-Ling just wants advice for when we have a baby of our own!” The way his face slowly falls, blood draining from his cheeks as he realizes what he’s said, makes Nie Huaisang’s day.

“Oh?” With a sweet smile, Nie Huaisang looks at his three nervous soon-to-be nephews. “You’re trying for a baby as well? That’s great news! Have you told Jiang Cheng yet? I’m sure he’d

love

 to know.”

They all clamor to beg for his silence, and as he lounges in his nest, Nie Huaisang thinks that maybe having them in his pack won’t be so bad after all.

——

It’s late by the time Jiang Cheng drags himself over to the bundle of blankets Nie Huaisang is tangled in, exhaustion lining the shadows of his face. He’s spent the day settling things at Yunmeng, putting someone in charge for the weeks ahead, making sure everything will run smoothly in his absence.

Nie Huaisang, no matter how much he tried to convince himself otherwise, was afraid he wouldn’t return.

“A-Cheng,” he says, and the relief in his voice is almost palpable, “you’re back.”

Jiang Cheng sinks down to the floor next to him, immediately curling into his side and nuzzling at his scent gland. “I said I would be, didn’t I?” He scents, the smell of gentle rain mixing with the omega’s own sweet honeysuckle, intertwining almost as seamlessly as their fingers do once they find each other in the dark. “What will it take to make you believe that I’m here to stay?”

The silence is enough of an answer. All things come to an end, Nie Huaisang knows, and yet he is so tired of things ending. He wants things, for once, to last forever.

Jiang Cheng deserves a happiness that lasts forever, and Nie Huaisang cannot give that. It would be only natural if Jiang Cheng leaves. Nie Huaisang wouldn’t blame him.

“Hey.” The alpha squeezes his hand, presses a kiss to his neck. “If you can’t believe it, then I’ll just say it over and over until you do.”

“Wow,” Nie Huaisang almost manages to make his voice as teasing as he wants it to be, “I didn’t know you could be so sweet.”

Jiang Cheng grunts. “Well, I was gonna say,

You’re literally going to be birthing my child in a few weeks, why the fuck would I leave, dumbass

, but the last time I said something like that, you cried.”

“I’m

sensitive

 when I’m in heat! Maybe you shouldn’t call me an idiot!”

“Only an idiot would think that I would leave someone I’ve been in love with for over twenty fucking years!”

Nie Huaisang falls silent at that, panting a little at his outburst. Things like yelling and sitting up takes a lot more effort these days, so he’s resorted to sulking to get what he wants.

This time, he isn’t quite sure what he wants.

Somehow, Jiang Cheng is. Without a word, he gets up, picking Nie Huaisang up in the process, and makes his way out of the pack room and into their room. The gentle way he sits him down and removes his clothes, and then lays him in their nest and tucks him in, is almost too much for Nie Huaisang to handle.

“A-Sang,” Jiang Cheng uses a voice he knows is reserved for him only, “for most of my life, I have been yearning for you. I’m terribly selfish. How could I ever leave you when I’ve been so desperately clinging onto you?”

Nie Huaisang feels a tear roll down his face and curses his hormones. Sniffling, he tugs his alpha into the nest, wraps around him as best he can. “Thank goodness you got off your ass and confessed to me,” is what he says, because he might actually sob if any heartfelt words manages to escape his mouth.

“Says the guy who knew I was in love with him all this time and did absolutely nothing about it. At least I had the whole fear of rejection excuse.”

“I really wasn’t counting on you being that much of a coward.”

“You—!”


I looked at my watch it was still quite early but already we were waiting in the hotel lounge for Caroline and James. I took a sip of my coffee hot and sweet I needed it my head reminding me of how much I had drunk the night before. I looked over to John his mind engrossed in the charts spread out over the table the excitement on our forthcoming trip lighting up his face, he looked to me saying nothing blew me a kiss I returned his kiss and closed my eyes remembering last night, I smiled a shiver of delight ran down my spine. I was brought back to reality by John's voice "You guys must be keen." He said causing me to return to reality I opened my eyes and to see a dishevelled Caroline and James walking over to us.

"We wanted to get out of that place as early as possible." Caroline replied. "We were out of there by five o'clock this morning and managed to find a nice café and had breakfast there."

"Was it that bad?" I asked.

"Worse." James said. "We ended up sleeping on our towels couldn't face the idea of our bodies touching the bed clothes."

I felt guilty remembering our wonderful night; there's must have been hell. I turned to Caroline "Give me a hug, you're out of there now and starting now we're going to have a bloody good holiday."

Caroline pulled back a little "You won't want to get too close to me, I haven't had a shower since leaving home yesterday, and the bathroom was disgusting the smell appalling I couldn't bear using it."

"Caroline you poor dear," I sympathized with her the thought of not being able to shower or wash was horrifying. "John we've still got the room key haven't we?"

"Yes I've not checked us out yet." John answered.

"Good. You guys take our key use our room to have a shower and get sorted. Why didn't you say it was that bad last night? Somehow we could all have shared our room."

"You two are so generous to us, what we would have done without you I don't know, thank you so so much." Caroline took the key giving us both a peck on the cheek. "We won't be long, fifteen minutes okay?" she asked.

"Guys take your time Susie and I will have another coffee." John answered.

"Thank you my darling." I said giving him a big cuddle and a kiss, I knew how eager he was to get to the boat but was still happy to wait for them.

Half an hour later they both reappeared looking a lot fresher and smiling. It was the first time I had really seen Caroline smile, her whole face lit up her eyes full of life. "I feel alive for the first time since we arrived, thank you." Caroline gave me a big hug her arms gripping my waist and surprised me with a longer than expected kiss on my lips. Instinctively I returned her kiss stunned at our sudden intimacy but, strangely not offended, after all she was just a friend. James broke the spell between us "Cheers mate." He said to John. "You really have saved us, I was getting worried Caroline was going to break down. I owe you guys' big time."

"It's what friends are for, have a coffee there's plenty in the pot and I'll check out then off we go." John strolled off to the reception a jump in his step. Caroline looked at me. "He's excited."

"He always is around yachts, it's his biggest love."

"Surely you're his biggest love?" James asked.

"Sometimes I'm not sure, I think he's married to boats, I'm just his mistress for when he's on land." I winked ensuring they knew I was joking. John returned we finished our coffee and took a taxi to the marina. As we reached the marina John's excitement had rubbed off on all of us, he had given us a rough itinerary it would be very laid back sailing but I knew John would want to push the yacht. We unloaded of cases as John went into the office. We needed to buy a few extra provisions arm in arm Caroline and I went to the local shop, leaving the guys to go over the boat and stow the food and luggage.

Within half an hour we returned everything we needed plus a few extra luxuries we handed them down to the guys and they helped us on board. The guys gave us a quick tour she was a beautiful white boat with a light blue stripe running down the hull it was quite new, inside there were two cabins galley and spacious salon and thankfully a separate loo and shower, I fell in love with her immediately.

We left harbour under the engine but as soon as we reached open water John started teaching James on how to set the sails. The boat cut through the flat crystal clear blue sea the weather was exquisite a light sea breeze the sky a picture perfect a deep blue only occasionally interrupted by a thin stream of white cloud the sun glowing warming every part of the body. "Would you care to join me on the deck and do absolutely nothing? I asked Caroline.

She smiled "Sounds perfect to me." the winds were light so we made our way forward. Caroline stripped off her shorts and top to reveal a turquoise bikini, she had a body I would kill for, a size 10 not an inch of extra fat on her, lovely long legs, trim waist probably a 34B bust, brunette shoulder length hair and eyes that matched her bikini to perfection. Caroline sat with her back to me I massaged the lotion into her skin, her body felt like satin beautiful, soft and near flawless. I finished her massage and standing up stripped off to my bikini I felt self-conscious, a hint of jealousy, wishing my body was still as flawless as hers.

"My turn," Caroline said, "lay down on your front and I'll do your back." I did as instructed and Caroline rubbing the oil in her hands started to expertly massage my back.

"That feels lovely," I murmured. "You've done this before." I added enjoying the luxurious sensation she was giving me.

"I have some training in sports massage; I use to play football for a ladies team until I was injured now I act as the physio for the team, it's not the same as playing but I enjoy it and it does have some advantages."

"Lucky ladies are all I can say." Caroline laughed, continuing the massage her practiced hands moving from my shoulder to my lower back, I jumped a little as the tips of her fingers went a little lower than expected below my bikini briefs. I moved, thinking my treatment was complete but Caroline's hand stopped me. "I haven't finished yet, if you're happy for me to continue?"

"Please." I answered. Caroline then moved her position, now straddling my calfs she continued, her hands massaging the back and sides of my thighs each stroke getting a little higher until her hands reached the cheeks of my bum, the next stroke her fingers pushed at my bikini exposing more of my bum, never before had I had a massage like this, I was feeling a little uncomfortable but also enjoying the sensations she was giving me. Caroline's hands went back to my thighs now her touch now stronger her two thumbs pushing between the cleft of my closed legs.

Caroline's voice woke me from my trance. "Would you like me to go further?" She asked.

"No, that feels fine." I answered not really knowing what she meant.

"Perhaps some other time soon." She said as she got off my legs and lay down next to me. We spent the next couple of hours chatting and getting to know each other taking in turns to replenish the drinks. Any issues we may have had about not getting on were soon dispelled; it was easy to tell by the chatting and laughing from the guys that they would soon be close friends.

It was late afternoon when John informed us that as the winds were light we would not make port before dark, we had two options, enter the port after dark or find a cove out of the wind and anchor for the night. I was hoping we would make port but John had been working hard all day sailing and crewing the boat alone whilst also trying to teach James. He was looking tired he could do with a break so the decision was made to anchor in a small cove. Within half an hour a cove was found, we anchored and set the boat for the night. I opened a bottle of wine and the four of us sitting in the cockpit raised a toast to a successful day.

"I fancy a swim, before we're pissed, anyone care joining me?" John asked.

James nodded his head in agreement "Sounds like a fine idea to me, ladies would you care to join us?" We looked at each other and nodded both replying yes in unison. "Let's go then." John said standing up removing his shirt his hands on the waistband of his shorts preparing to remove them.

"John," I shouted. "No!" Realising his actions he pulled his shorts back up though not before exposing most of his bum to us.

He apologised to James and Caroline. "Sorry I didn't think, forgot we weren't alone for a second. Normally if we're alone it's easier to strip off. Saves a lot of faffing around, didn't mean to embarrass you.

James laughed. "You don't need to apologise not the first naked bum we've seen, we've frequented the odd naturist beach in our time.

I stepped in "Sorry about him Caroline, normally when we're alone sailing we don't worry too much about wearing anything when swimming. Hope he didn't embarrass you?"

"I'm fine with nudity, please carry on, as James said we do strip of ourselves and it's us invading your holiday."

I looked to Caroline. "You're not invading the holiday; this is our holiday it belongs to the four of us."

John looked at James and Caroline "If you're sure?"

"Yes go ahead, I presume you haven't got anything I haven't seen before?" Caroline said with a smile on her face.

"If you're sure with that guys? Then let's live the dream." John answered but not waiting for a reply as he removed his shorts threw them on the deck and without turning around dived naked into the water.

"When in Rome, if you're okay with that Susie?" James asked, my nod giving him the go ahead. "Thank you." With that his shirt and shorts joined John's abandoned on the deck.

"Are we going to join them?" I asked Caroline.

"Do you mean for a swim or stripped off?" She asked.

"We're on holiday, I don't want to get this bikini wet and can't be bothered going to change." I replied. Caroline wasting no more time stripped off joining the guys in the water with me only seconds behind her.

We swam around laughing and playing although we were in the water it was very clear and I did take a peek to see what James had. Caroline certainly peaked at John several times swimming very close to him. Several times I caught James watching me closely and although I'm not a natural exhibitionist I had no issues with James and Caroline seeing me naked swimming in the water, the situation felt natural and right.

I swam for about ten minutes the water beautifully clear, warm and refreshing, I could have stayed in the water for hours, swimming, laughing and playing but stomachs would soon start grumbling food would be required; I now had to pay for my day of relaxation to the galley I needed to go. I climbed out and now it was me not thinking, grabbing a towel I dried my face and sat down and picked my drink up letting the sun dry my body laughing watching the high junks of John Caroline and James. The guys decided to swim to shore leaving Caroline to swim back to the boat; pulling her body out of the sea she joined me in the cockpit wrapping herself in a towel as she sat.

I felt Caroline's eyes were scrutinising my body feeling a little self-conscious I grabbed the nearest towel covering my modesty from Caroline's gaze. "Hey don't cover yourself on my account, you have a pretty body, very sexy, you should show it off." Caroline winked, leaning towards me she placed her hand on my thigh, making my body jump, "soft and smooth too." She giggled, gently stroking my thigh before removing her hand.

I looked at Caroline, there was something about her, something I couldn't decipher. I had had the same thought at the airport and dismissed it but the thought had returned. "What dark secrets do you told?" I asked myself.

We finished dinner, between Caroline and me we had cooked paella adding the few muscles the guys had brought back with them. I stacked the plates and John took them down to the galley returning with another bottle of wine, we had probably drunk too much already though no one refused John's offer of a refill. I felt contentment, resting my head on John's shoulder I looked around the night was dark, a moonless night broken only by the masthead light throwing shadows over the yacht, momentarily conversation went quiet, leaving only the sound of the sea quietly slapping the hull of the yacht.

Eventually James broke the silence. "I know you guys are naturist lovers but have you ever tried sailing naked?"

John looked at me I looked back and shrugged my shoulders and John answered James's question. "Actually we normally spend most of the time naked when we're out here sailing with no one else around: it's a feeling of freedom, free from all restraints only the wind moving the boat the sun on our bodies, it feels so natural the way it should be."

Caroline whispered in my ear. "What else do you get up to when you're alone out here?"

I giggled a drunken giggle I knew exactly what Caroline meant; normally I would have been reserved in my answer but the wine had taken its toll loosening my tongue. I whispered to her ear. "Making love on the deck at midnight, you can't beat it. You must try it; we'll set up a rota taking turns."

"That sounds like heaven." She replied. "Who's first on the rota?"

I winked at her "I believe your name is on the top of the list." I left it a few minutes and yawned. "John I'm tired and feeling a little drunk, let's have an early night?"

"I'm fine if you want to turn in." I stared at him; he knew he had given the wrong answer. "Actually it's not a bad idea; we'll leave you guys to it if that's okay."

"Sure." Said James with a slight smile; Caroline had obviously told him about our rota. Kisses and goodnights were exchanged and we retired to our cabin. We had been in bed for only a few minutes past before we could hear them moving and stumbling and laughing on deck. I smiled, I knew what was happening and let John in on the secret of the rota. Caroline and James settled down on the deck directly above our cabin. The soundproofing isn't great on these boats we couldn't see them though by the sounds they were making they were certainly enjoying each other.

John stood up pushing his ear to the roof to listen to James and Caroline. "Don't be nosy." I shouted to him in a whisper, slapping his thigh in chastisement but losing my own battle not to join him. I listened, whispering we were trying to interpret their sounds, John mimed Caroline giving James a blowjob, and I burst out with laughter having to fall on the bed using a pillow to stifle my laugh. I regained my poise looking up from the bed I could see John was getting turned on, my hand went to his semi erect cock gently I started to stroke him. I started to fondle my tits through my night shirt the feeling of John's cock getting harder in my hand having an effect on me.

I sat up from the bed taking John's cock to my mouth imitating Caroline's actions with James, John let out a quiet moan his hand pushing on my head wanting me to take his cock deeper. I gagged as it hit the back of my throat my fingernails digging into his arse making him push his cock deeper. My hand reached between my legs, my pussy already wet I ran my finger down my pussy before my juice covered finger found my waiting clitoris, rubbing it in rhythm with the fondling of my tits and John's cock. John pulled out his cock and whispered to me. "Let's take a look." I should have said no, already we were invading their privacy but I was intrigued, I had never watched two people making love before.

We crept quietly out of our cabin and out to the cockpit, carefully we looked over the top of the glass windshield hoping we wouldn't be seen. I gasped at the sight, both of them lit up by the masthead light, James had removed his shorts and was lying on his back with Caroline astride James leaning slightly forward and riding his cock hard, her naked back shinning in the light her dress crumpled at her waist.

John stood behind me I could feel his hard cock pushing against my naked arse. Positioning myself careful I reached behind myself and took his cock guiding it to my pussy. John knew what to do I gasped with delight as he eased his cock deep in my pussy the tip brushing the front of my pussy and find my G-spot. I wanted to scream only John's hand in front of my mouth stopping me, I had to be quiet I didn't want Caroline and James to know we were watching but I also wanted to scream to the world.

Slowly he fucked me from behind his hands tightly he gripped my hips, with one hand I supported us both, the other fondling my clit as John plunged deeper inside me, both of us watching and enjoying the sight of James and Caroline fucking. This was a new experience for me and I was enjoying it. John moved his arm around my waist his other hand slipping up my night shirt finding, caressing, playing with my tits my hardened nipples enjoy the attention he was giving them.

I had a sudden urge to be with James and Caroline, lying next to them as John fucked me, as James fucked Caroline for them to be watching us enjoying the same pleasures they were bestowing on us. I wanted them to look up, to see us, to invite us to join them. I wanted to shout, scream, and call to the world around us. I was in paradise, a new paradise, a paradise I never wanted to leave. I controlled my urge to shout; I watched and listened to them intently as John's fucked me. By the light of the moon I could see James's fucking Caroline his hands gripping her hips as John had gripped mine pulling her harder down onto his cock.

Caroline was calling, demanding. "Fuck me James, yes fuck me, harder, fuck my wet cunt, fuck my brains fuck my cunt harder." I couldn't imagine Caroline would use that language but she was. Her voice lowered though I could still hear what she was saying. "Think of you fucking Susie's tight cunt, I know you want to, and you want to watch John fucking my cunt, using me as his slut." I was shocked by what she was saying, but strangely turned on hearing it. Did she really mean it? Surely it was just a fantasy to turn him on? Said in the heat of the moment? Right now I didn't care, he could fuck me.

I rubbed my clit harder as John fucked me, abusing my nipples, my tits my whole body. I felt John's body stiffen his cock grow harder I knew he was close to coming, he pressed deeper inside me, furiously I rubbed my clit, I wanted to come with him for us to come together, for us all to come together. A small wave ran through my body, followed by more, each a little stronger than the last. John pushed hard into me and I felt his cock explode as a larger wave of my orgasm ran through me I could feel my pussy filling with John's sperm, a second and third time he shot more inside me as my orgasm reached its summit exploding my every sense in ecstasy. I slumped forward a little trying to regain my composure, John's cock now spent slowly slipped out of me, a cocktail of sexual juices drawing down my thigh, his arms still around me, holding me, and loving me.

With James and Caroline still locked to each other we moved away silently not wanting to disturb them or be seen. Retreated to our cabin we collapsed on the bed still catching our breath regaining our control now oblivious to James and Caroline above us. John pulled the sheet over us, holding me tightly I could hear movement from above; Caroline and James had reached their crescendo.

I lay there quietly in the bed feeling only the beat of John's heart as he fell into a sleep, I thought of tonight's events, it was exciting, different, something new, though I felt guilt, we had no right to invade their privacy. How would I feel if they had done the same to us? I wasn't sure, before tonight I would have been upset, annoyed, betrayed. Did I still feel like that? Strangely I didn't know. I wondered what tomorrow will bring.

I heard the sound of their cabin door shut, it was silent only the familiar sound of the water against the hull and the gentle rocking from the swell. I looked up to the darkness of the cabin; one last thought entered my head before sleep. "What did Caroline mean about swapping partners? Was it just a fantasy? Or a reality?" I closed my eyes, the night taking me to my dreams, my answer not discovered.


taetae

Today 7:27 AM
jimin:left some breakfast in the fridge for you when you wake up <3

jungkook :)

Today 7:29 AM
jimin:good morning jungkook

jimin:hope i get to see you today :)

jungkook:morning hyung

jungkook:me too

jimin:oh i didnt expect you to be awake this early lol

jungkook:i just woke up

jimin:aww cute

jimin:im on my way to the studio

jimin:about to get on the bus

jungkook:will you still be able to do lunch today?

jimin:i think so

jimin:come by the studio around 12?

jungkook:i'll be there :)

jimin:see you then :)

jungkook :)

Today 11:54 AM
jungkook:hey just got here

jungkook:whenever you're free

jimin:give me like, 10 more minutes? and i'll be outside

jungkook:ok :)

jungkook :)

Today 12:35 PM
jimin:sorry lunch had to be so short

jimin:but thank you for coming

jimin:im really glad i got to see you

jungkook:i'm glad i got to see you too :)

jungkook:text me tonight when you get home?

jimin:i will

jungkook::)

taetae

Today 9:15 AM
taehyung:ty bb <3

Today 12:37 PM
jimin:tae i like him a lot :(

taehyung:i kno chim

jimin:also im definitely coming to the thing this weekend

jimin:i'll make time for it

taehyung:!!! good!

taehyung:cant wait :)

jungkook :)

Today 8:43 PM
jimin:hey, i just got home

jimin:free to talk?

jungkook:earlier than yesterday

jungkook:and for you, always

jimin:cheesy

jimin:i have another early day tomorrow but i wanted to get home in time to talk to you

jimin:waiting until i was that exhausted yesterday was not the smartest thing ive done

jungkook:im glad you made time for me

jimin:i want to make time for you

jungkook::)

jungkook:you still want to talk about stuff from yesterday?

jimin:yeah, i do

jungkook:ok, cool

jungkook:is it ok if i go first?

jungkook:ive been thinking about what i want to say all day

jimin:yeah of course

jungkook:ok

jungkook:so ive mentioned that this is kind of new to me

jungkook:like, i've been with people but only before i transitioned. and that kind of changed a lot of things about my body

jungkook:and i've been nervous about how things are going to progress since i didnt tell you from the start

jungkook:and i appreciate that you've been respectful so far and i trust you and i like you a lot

jungkook:and im glad you wanted to talk too because i want to go further with you but i want to talk about boundaries first

jungkook:ok that's everything

jungkook:i know the boundaries i wanna talk about too but if you wanna say something before we start talking about then. um. idk go ahead

jimin:thank you for trusting me jungkook

jimin:i was worried before because

jimin:well like i said i usually just rush into stuff and there's not a lot of talking

jimin:and ive never been with a trans guy before so i didnt know what to do or what to expect and i was kind of nervous

jimin:but i was looking up stuff online and it seemed like

jimin:idk there's a lot to talk about and i didnt want to use the wrong words or say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing with you

jimin:i just want you to be comfortable with me

jimin:so whatever boundaries you have is fine, i dont want to do anything you dont want

jungkook:thank you

jungkook:and i mean same to you? if you have anything you dont want to do

jimin:lol i'm pretty open

jungkook:oh

jungkook:ok

jimin:im down to try whatever and if something comes up i'll say something

jimin:but what are some of the boundaries you wanted to talk about?

jungkook:well you know the biggest one, im not really ok with like. any penetration

jungkook:and like, touching anywhere else is mostly fine, but on my chest it's kind of

jungkook:i have scars there and im kind of uncomfortable with them so

jungkook:touching is fine but not like, lingering? if that makes sense

jimin:yeah it does

jungkook:also i mentioned before im fine with saying clit or like calling it a dick or whatever, it doesnt matter to me but i'd rather not talk about anything else no matter what words are used

jimin:i kinda got that feeling from our phone calls, but it's good to know. thanks

jimin:and you said touching anywhere else is mostly fine. why not totally fine? i don't want to do somethign wrong

jungkook:like below the waist, sometimes it's okay but other times i need to work up to it

jungkook:sometimes i just dont want to be touched at all

jungkook:so i guess it's just, go slow

jimin:ok. i'll check with you first

jungkook:thanks

jimin:i guess it sounds like you're mostly okay with like, what we've sexted or called about? like handjobs or oral but not fucking

jungkook:i mean, yeah im cool with those things, and i dont want to be the one getting fucked

jungkook:but um

jungkook:for the record

jungkook:what you said yesterday isn't true

jimin:what did i say?

jungkook:that i can't fuck you

jungkook:i have straps

jungkook:like, multiple different dicks to choose from

jungkook:if that's something you're into

jimin:oh. i never thought about that

jungkook:does that mean you are into it?

jungkook:because i do have a lot and i can get more if you want

jungkook:i have like normal ones but i also have a tentacle one that i've always wanted to use on someone

jimin:you have a tentacle dick

jungkook:yeah

jungkook:what's the point of having a detachable dick if i can't have an exciting one

jimin:oh my god jungkook

jimin:i think i love you

jungkook:oh

jimin:wait

jimin:i didnt mean to say that, i had a plan, it just slipped out

jungkook:oh

jimin:was it too soon?

jimin:please just ignore me until i find a better way to tell you in person

jungkook:i just wasnt expecting it

jimin:me neither

jimin:can we go back to talking about you fucking me because that conversation was much easier

jungkook:we can ;)

jungkook:i can call if you want too

jungkook:just wish you weren't so busy this week so we could do more than just talk about it

jimin:me too :(

jimin:but it'll be something to look forward to right?

jimin:you'd better call me though

jimin:preferably now

jungkook:ok give me a minute to wash my face and brush my teeth

jimin:im waiting :(

jungkook:talk to you soon :)